It feels like your going crazy but insanity is when you do the same things time after time and expect a different result. Hit meeting ls, find a sponser. So the work. I swear it will get better.
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Yes I have.
You my sponsor told me that getting sober was easy. It's staying sober that's the hard part.
But he also told me it's mind over matter. If you think you don't matter you're wrong. No matter what we have done in our past life, God died on the cross for us so we could be forgiven.
So there for her said forgive yourself ( meaning me )
If one day at a time didn't work for me then change it to one second or one minute at a time if need be.
And remember our life has gotten better. Weather we see it now or it takes some time. However don't ever forget where we carne from and how we got there. That is something that I will never forget.
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I almost made it to 3 months before I slid back. You should be proud of yourself. It's hard. Keep chugging along
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I found that the more I focus on my goals in recovery and why I chose sobriety leads me towards more meetings and more motivation.
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You need to go to meetings.You need to do the work sweetheart. I am only 37 days sober now due to hitting my 3rd month. Blamed it on my sponsors 4 times... Because "They were all wrong!"- Not! I relapsed 4 times... Trying to outrun this thing. I blackout all 4 times. Last time I drove my vehicle in a blackout. One of those "Yet!" You hear about. Something I was dead against my whole life. It's progressive desease. We are who we are alcoholic's. Talk to sober buddies, do something nice for yourself. You deserve it... Keep going girl:wink:
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Mindy.... How are you holding up over there?
You still with us?
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Yes, I’m still here and sober! I work 12 hour shifts on a rotation so been busy but thank you all for your support and words of wisdom. I really do appreciate it so much. Doing good. Just have good and bad days of course.
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Mindy,
You're welcome. Words of wisdom only come with experience.
I'm glad you're still here. Keep up the good work.
You working 3/12's or 4/12's with OT?
We all have our days. Sometimes you eat the bear and sometimes the bear eats you.
If you're eating it chew it thoroughly and enjoy the meal.
If it's eating you enjoy the bear skin coat it's protecting you from something.
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Remember that without a few bad days thrown in, we would not have gratitude for all the good days. If it weren't for the turmoil we put ourselves through when active in our addictions, we would not be grateful for our sobriety.
Change your perspective, change your reality.
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3 12’s. I like your analogy!
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Thank you so much. When I was drinking I would have black outs, that’s so disturbing and scary. I never want to experience that again and must remember that.
Hi, two months not drinking then I did canceling is not helping
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Try to remember we are constantly growing and changing. On top of that life happens. So it's normal to struggle at different points in recovery.
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I get it. I’ve had a few close calls myself. What do you mean by cancelling? Things aren’t always as clear to me as they should be Lol
You know the whole timer in the program used to tell me all the time be good to yourself because if you're not no one might be that day.
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Mindy you got this. You can do this. It's all of mine set! Mind over matter and if your light doesn't matter then week is Alex and alcoholics can choose to get drunk or high. But the mind over matter says it does matter and you do mind.
So that's just the devil still trying to work his way in in the tiniest of cracks.
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Hey Mindy I was thinking about you, and wanted to check to see how you are doing?
90 days is a big hump to move through but day 91 you'll look behind and go i made it
The thing that works for me is changing how I talk to myself in my head, when I get any negative thought I immediately hit it with I am love, I am calm, I am enough. You can add what you want to increase the list. The conscious mind can only have one thought at a time. Don't let what I like to call the voice of knowledge run the show. I hope this helps, and always hang on.
Another one I like is maybe tomorrow, but not today.