Please if anyone had a change of mentality or a realization that helped them to stop using, please share. Or any tips..
Ive been to rehab twice this year for cocaine and I still can’t seem to let it go. I want to quit and live normally again so desperately. I promise myself I’ll stay away, but I always run back. It’s taken everything from me, and I don’t even know where to begin with building myself back up. I’m angry when I have it, I’m angry when I don’t.
That’s my DOC as well. That and alcohol. And I really had to get away from the people who use cocaine. Because if someone is doing it that means they know where to get it and I can call them whenever I want it and hèll, they’re even getting some too. So I done hit the double whammy!! Sooo needless to say, I had to do something different and that’s change my people, places, and things. Now I’m in a halfway house that’s a bit structured more than others but that’s what I needed to keep myself fully focused on my recovery. After rehab, go live at a halfway house. Do something else!!!
Focus on higher power and good friends and family network can help.
Be connected
Lean into recovery community as much as possible. The answers will come. 
You to change your attitude and latitude. You have to change your course . If you want to quite using you have to get away from the places you use & the people you use with. And give it to God. Jesus is the reason. It you have to give it all to him. That is how I stop using drug & stop drinking. I lost my son last year . June 6 2020z , I stayed sober. It s all thanks to God family & Friends . 
I been there I know I used for almost 10 years none stop. It a very difficult drug to come off but it’s possible. I’ll be honest with you. Stay in treatment go back if you can. I didn’t have that option and If I did back them I would have stop sooner. If your having craving most likely you will relapse.
Coke sucks. Everyone know it sucks. And yet when it’s around and everyone is doing it and you’ve been drinking it’s all too easy to rationalize, even when you haven’t done it in months.
Coke is shitty, only takes and has nothing to offer. I’m ending friendships with my friends who use, not because they offer it to me, but because I know where to go where I get a craving and I don’t want to have an option.
You can do it! You are more important.
Praying for you Anna and glad you’re here!
Welcome to my world. I am currently in my 3rd rehab this year for cocaine n opiates. I have 32 days clean but only because I know I need more time away from the world. I’ve had 4 years clean and relapsed. I just quit my bartender job and went to rehab. I am doing long term and a sober house in a different state. I am doing something different this time. I am making myself uncomfortable to conquer my issues so I don’t go back to using. I am taking this time to find myself again. I don’t know if this helped you at all but I’m just trying to say don’t give up. It gets better later. I’ve been there and experienced it myself. I changed my number and deleted a lot of ppl off social media. It sucks that I’m spending the holidays alone. But technically I’m not alone because I have friends here and platforms like this. Stay strong
AA, Steps 1,2,3 have removed the urges to drink, do drugs or nicotine for me. The others steps have kept me sober for almost 2 years. I had to go to the extreme and change my entire psychic. Personality change.
The willingness to do whatever it takes was what did it for me. I’m a chronic relapser that couldn’t ever get 60 days. Now almost six months.
Got to have willingness to stop. Pray Every TIME you get an urge.
I literally my moved from Chicago to California to leave it behind.
I have found that the only way to change is to change everything, people, places, sometimes even the music.. anything that would trigger my “Izum” I removed. I also take the 12 step program as seriously as I took my drugs and drinking. I was so fed up with my life I was willing to do anything to change it. Even 1 second, 1 minute, 1 hour at time. I live by just for right now I will not drink or use and before I new it I a day a week a month and few years now.. just never give up hope nor faith
I agree with Alexa - I had to move and completely change my life.
Have you been to CA meeting. Changing playground n playmates is a must also.
Meetings help me a lot! My best advice would be to go to as many meetings as you can, get numbers and reach out for support. You are not alone! 
Cocaine is my drug of choice and what I’m struggling with. It sucks.