Darn it-what the heck wrong with me I am again

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#1

Darn it-what the heck wrong with me I am again going to be sober tomorrow and I think I might need to go to a meeting I really hate those meetings I really really do I’ve been burned so many times I just hate them but I am willing to do whatever it takes it this point

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#2

What do you hate about the meetings, Terri?

#3

You don't have to go to meetings to find support. You are doing a great job reaching out here. I listen to podcasts, read books, talk to friends, journal, etc

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#4

I do the same. I go to a meeting on Tuesday and still all those things throughout.

#6

Yeah, I hear you. Bit go and listen and try and get a couple of sober friends.

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#7

I meant better

#8

You obviously did look for the right meetings. Maybe you don’t like to hear the hard facts about drinking. Just take out from a meeting what you need leave the rest. I have gone to the same meetings for the entire 1st half of my sobriety now I have ventured out to new meetings because they go too preachy for me. I just did a great one at 12:00. I need to do whatever because IF I drink again I am dead. If you really want sobriety you can definitely do it. Just make friends go to meetings reach out. Please just don’t drink. I am watching my 39 year old friend fight for her life with stage 4 cirrhosis. So if that doesn’t scare anyone then drink up.

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#9

Have you tried smartrecovery .org? Science based using the CBT Model.

There is a lot of zoom meeting. I really enjoy them.

#10

I will try it

#11

Any podcasts you would recommend Julie?

#12

I guess it’s reality

#13

When I don’t want to go to meetings is when I need to go to a meeting and it’s uncanny that I always hear something that I really needed to hear. It takes take kind of commitment to yourself not just to the program. I am at my greatest danger when I think I’ve got this.

#14

Well the whole honesty thing and it pisses me off and I’ve been doing it for several years and I’ve been screwed by people in AAA

#15

What’s the crazy is that every time I go to meeting I’m gonna say it again I hate when I need to hear but somehow I just can’t seem to get there

#16

I want to hold on to the all the past experiences that I’ve had with A and the man that just wanna you I’m sorry I love you and the sponsors that you went $400 to that never paid you back and then the other Sponsor that just hung herself after 25 years

#17

It makes it very hard for me to trust any of you people

#18

And that was only three people and I’m sure you guys are cool. But the whole dude thing really affects me I was sexually abused as a child and every time I’m in the room with guys. It just affects me well only because they’re all trying to lvr me I mean love me

#19

I guess I’m just that person right now there’s like dear God why do I have to go to these wonderful meetings and what I realize is that I save my life

#20

Oh dear God shut me up right now that is so crazy everything I just said was so crazy for the guys images I just asked you help me get one deserve a Solas for one day sober

#21

That is so true thank you so much