Thank you so much.. I will definitely keep that in mind. I went to my Dr. This morning and asked for help!
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Thank you everyone for your comments. Getting this app has been so helpful and such kind people!!
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Please don’t get discouraged, get back up, dust yourself off, and take it day by day. Undertaking to stay sober for the rest of your life is daunting, just focus on staying sober today. Much love
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The bruising Is from drinking. I've been where you are. Gotta detox yourself off and try again! You got this.
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Most of us fight ourselves until we just realize we won't win. Please do go to detox and an inpatient program. It will be the best decision you ever made and it won't be as hard as you think. You will feel better every day. You'll be proud of yourself and so will we. You can do it!
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Im not sure about detox… I went to my Dr and have an appointment tomorrow at the hospital so not sure what that entails yet
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I understand. I KNOW I am now my only abuser ... when I stay clean I am less accidentally hurt, by myself.
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Hi Kirsten. I quit cold turkey over 3 and a half years ago. The first 3 months were horrible but I kept thinking and saying to myself I don’t want to die. I have a lot to live for. I distanced myself from everyone and continued to work and focus on staying strong and sober. I didn’t go to AA , detox, sober home. I was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver and doctors and specialist told me to quit or die. I chose to quit and now I’m healthy I lost 50 pounds, work everyday. Let the willpower kick in and you can do this. Stay strong and fight.
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Thank you for the message Paul! I haven’t tried AA yet I feel intimidated about going I dont know why.. everything right now is so nerve racking.. today has been hard I have been shaky and sweating profusely all day.. even with my ac on and fan blasting. Im so looking forward to seeing what this RAAM program is all about tomorrow.
Congratulations so glad you are here!! We love you. Stay 
Welcome back, I'm glad you're here!! What's going to be different this time? As far as the steps go, it sounds like you're still on Step 1. Unless you realize that to drink/use is to die, you're just not there yet.
On the plus side, you made it through your first 4th of July without having to pickup!! I'm not trying to discourage you at all, but I needed to have these things pointed out to me when I was brand new to sobriety.
Try to hit 90 meetings in 90 days, put sobriety first over everything else, don't pick up no matter what, be open-minded, willing to follow suggestions, and teachable and you will do well! Half measures availed us NOTHING, I had to be all in and fully committed to this thing in order for it to work for me.
Praying for you! 
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Thank you for the message… I am Canadian so our long weekend was just before and I unfortunately did drink 
but I am working on it
I've tried (like millions of other people) to quit countless times on my own. Nothing changes bc nothing changed. I went to AA, and I started following their suggestions because I was out of options. An app on my phone isn't going to keep me sober. I had to dive into AA bc I was out of options. I was given the gift of desperation, and I had to hold onto it for dear life. For me, to drink is to die.
It sounds like you're not ready yet, so the book of AA states that if you aren't convinced yet then you should go out and try to do some controlled drinking.
In Alcoholics Anonymous, Chapter 3, titled "More About Alcoholism", lists many methods people have tried to control their drinking, including limiting drinks, drinking only at home, and never drinking alone. However, the book also says that the idea that someone can control their drinking is an obsession that can lead to insanity or death. The book suggests that eliminating drinking is only the beginning, and that a more important demonstration of principles can be found in other areas of life. Instead, the book suggests that working with other alcoholics is the most effective way to avoid drinking.
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Controlled drinking doesn’t work for me. I just went to an addiction clinic yesterday and was given alot of resources and various groups I can attend with other people in addiction. I am not sure if AA is for me personally so thats why I have chosen another path for now. However, I have recently downloaded the everything AA app so that I can explore it and read the material within the app.
For me getting professional help was a necessary first step as I have terrible withdrawal symptoms so wanted to make sure I am going to be safe while I detox. This is only the beginning but I am determined to get sober and stay sober. Thank you for sharing some of your journey with me.
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Hey Kirsten 
how are you doing 
Alcohol and benzos are the 2 chemicals that can kill you from the withdrawal. I would highly recommend doing so under the supervision of medical professionals. It sounds like you're done, and that you have been given the gift of desperation. I had to hold onto my sobriety like it was a life preserver and I was drowning in the middle of the ocean. That's exactly what it felt like, and I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it was the best blessing I could have been given. You can do this!!
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Go to a detox/in patient. It’s important to deal with these substances in a medical setting so if there’s any severe withdrawal side-effects someone there will be equipped to help.
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I went yesterday and I was prescribed something to help me with the withdrawals and cravings so I am doing this under the care of a medical team
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That’s phenomenal and you should be very proud of yourself.
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Hey Brianna, I am doing ok today its definitely not easy but I feel motivated to get through it since seeing such an amazing team of medical professionals yesterday… gave me so much hope.