Day One. Again

Struggling Help
#1

I'm struggling with yet another Day 1. We all know the symptoms, so I won't describe what's happening, but boy, this really stinks. I'm so disappointed in myself and I think I'm probably going to lose my job. I've been suspended until Tuesday, and I can't even remember what I said that got me in trouble.
There's no one at the house with me (son is at his dad's), and so I'm just feeling pretty low. It's not good... I absolutely hate that I did this to myself yet again...

Thanks for listening. This actually really helped to write down and release part of... :revolving_hearts::pray:

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#2

Congratulations on your day one! The first day is always the hardest but here you are even if life has thrown you a curve ball at the moment. If you want someone to chat with let me know. You arent your drunken mistakes, you are human dont forget that my dear!

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#4

Thank you both for your support and encouragement. It really does help. Hearing things from the perspective of people who can relate reminds me that I need to give myself a little grace. Thank you :pray:

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#5

It happened. It is done. Dont beat yourself up. It is in falling off of the horse that we learn to get back on again.

The job... A better door will open. Just don't wait, strike while the iron is hot, whatever that means. :rofl:. Finding employment should be the hardest job we've ever worked. Those words will never leave me and I've been unable to work for years due to disability. I'll be back though! Just like you!

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#6

Thank you so much, Josh, for your words. I was trying to remind myself all day, that what's passed is passed, self-forgiveness, etc, so it helps to hear someone validate that, but it sure feels harder to do than ever before. Anyway, thank you. :pray:

#7

You made it back count yourself lucky most of us don’t! No matter what keep going it’s just a bump in the road. Call your sponsor and sober support. Hit some meetings.

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#8

I relapsed for 11 years and I remember that painful shame. I have many years sober now. That was the past. Today is the present. What are you going to do today to nourish and fight for your recovery?
Do you have a sponsor? Can you call them today?
Do you have a meeting planned in person or on zoom?
Who do plan to call to reach out and see how they are doing with their recovery?
Recovery gets easier one day at a time.

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#9

Thank you for sharing this. Right now I'm still not physically well enough to go anywhere but I have been in touch with my sister and several friends. Today, I am going to pray and meditate and drink lots of water and hope to make some healthy food to eat (yesterday I didn't eat). If I can do all of that, it'll be a monumental day...
I'm so happy you found and fought for your sobriety again. To another 24... :pray:

#10

Hi Debbie Congrats on day 1! I know the feeling I picked up in 2020 after 19 years and 8 months. Sending a hug your way . You got this 1 day at a time

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#11

Thank you so much for your sharing and support. I really appreciate it :pray:

#12

I’m on day 1 and I’m so upset and frustrated. I’m in a pit of darkness with suicidal ideation. I still have alcohol in the home and I really don’t want it around me.

#13

I'm so sorry you're going through that. It's really important that you reach out to someone, preferably a professional, if you're having suicidal ideation. This is a beautiful life, we just deal with a sometimes overwhelming disease.
My father took his own life when I was 4 and even though I have had suicidal thoughts in my past, being sober at points has really opened my eyes to what an amazing opportunity at each new day is. We can do this. One day, or one moment, at a time. Keep reaching out to people. We're here for you!!

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#14

Welcome back! You’re in the right place, don’t beat yourself up, alcoholism is a disease that centers in the mind and body, the doctors opinion in the big book talks about that and will give you a clearer understanding of it.

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#15

We all start at day one. Every day. Show yourself compassion and kindness. Move forward, take action. One day at a time and keep it simple. We’ve all been there

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#16

Wow, thanks, Greg. That one really hit home - "we all start at Day one. Every day." I forget that all the time. And I've never been very kind to myself. Thank you for the reminders. I really needed that... :pray:

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#17

I would urge you to look up Annie Grace! I read her book called “This Naked Mind” & it was VERY enlightening! Her 30 Day Alcohol Experiment is FREE! I also read the book The 30 Day Alcohol Experiment. Annie Grace is full of wisdom … she’s the best! She has free videos on YouTube. I have her app called the This Naked Mind Companion app which is also free. I think you should try her advice. It’s life changing & full of compassion & grace. Thanks to her I have been alcohol free for over a year :grin:

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#18

Having a setback is not as important as what you do about it! Congrats on your day one!!! There will be a lot of people out there today who will never have another day one!!! I’m no white chip wonder however I find my strength in the Lord!! He never would let me lay in my mess, I tried it every way imaginable and it was futile!!! Glad you have reached out! All you have is today!

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#19

I love that - the Lord would never let you lay in your mess. That's fantastic. And I keep finding that, as well. I have found God in my sobriety journey and it's whenever I turn away from him and try to muscle through on my own, and forget to slow down and pray, that i set myself back. He's thrown me a million chances to live my best life one day at a time; I'm just grateful that I got another one today... Thank you for reaching out :pray:

#20

Not one day have I prayed for the Lord to keep me sober that he failed!! I live today completely on faith, I go to a few aa meetings a week and church twice a week, the life he has for me I could never have imagined, he has a plan for you too!!! Don’t sell yourself short!!!

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#21

People make mistakes. But mistakes make people. Congrats on your day 1. It takes a lot to hold yourself accountable instead of saying just f*ck it and keep drinking. You can do this! You are not alone there are tens of thousands of people struggling with the same things you are. I was a few weeks ago. I am on day 8 again for what feels like the millionth time. Just  remember that your worst stayed sober is better than your best Day drunk.

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