Decision Made!

Recovery
#1

I am drinking tonight but I’ve told several great friends that I’m going back to sobriety tomorrow, just to hold myself accountable. The Alcohol Experiment has put it into perspective for me. Im scared yet excited. Im so very tired of waking up with a pit in my stomach full of anxiety, depression and just a general sense of doom. It’s equally killing my health. It really has been a miserable existence for me. I have no room for alcohol in my life anymore.

I know I’m excited about this change but im not ignorant to the fact that temptations will present themselves, especially with my husband who is a heavy drinker. I can’t fix him but i can make my life better for myself. Prayers are most certainly welcomed🙏

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#2

Instead of drinking tonight, how about going to a meeting and sharing about it….. just a humble suggestion!

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#3

Every time you go back to it it will get harder and harder, get yourself into a meeting

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#4

Prayers for the strength to stick to it

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#5

You’re rationalizing drinking to recovering alcoholics

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#6

Hi there. I've been right where you are Mindy. And the next morning I again felt sick and guilty. I kept doing that for over 30 years but now I'm feeling strong in my sobriety, but I'm 65 years old! So, remember - you can do this. I don't know if this message helps any but I hope so.

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#7

Bad decision

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#8

Drinking is emotionally and physically painful and it’s a looping existence thinking it’ll be different the next time. That’s me tho. I’m praying for the obsession to go away.

#9

:joy::joy:. You know we can rationalize anything at anytime. I sure did​:joy::pray:t4:

#10

Not going to preach or tell you anything. Good luck to you

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#11

Mindy,

Sobriety doesn't work like that. Sobriety is more than not drinking, it's about learning how to live without using substance as the answer to everything. What you're doing is called Controlled Drinking in the AA Big Book. I did it, alot of addicts and alcoholics do. We rationalize out of fear, denial and a lack of understanding that we can't drink like normal folks.

If you want to chat, shoot me a message. I've made all of the excuses, used every self help book, lied to many therapists and had to hit a really low point in my life before I admitted that I can't manage it and that I am alcoholic. 1815 days free of the shame, anxiety, drama, jail, and all the other shenanigans :pray:t4:.

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#12

Most recovering alcholics dont start with your first sentence, sadly many of us have hit our rock bottoms and had a awakening and decided to quot for ourselves im one of them,bit I applaud your decision and I hope you make it.I just dont see a reason to start with that,no need for *liquid courage" to make My decision was needed

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#13

They will need to figure that out. Why don't you give some guidance?

#14

Just speaking my truth

#15

I’m not rationalizing anything. Just speaking my truth, stating the facts of what I was doing last night and my plan for an AF life moving forward today. Still my plan today and I’m not drinking right now, thus not speaking with liquid courage!

I regret posting and sharing that now due to all the negative comments. I’ve recovered before so I know my journey and am committed to sobriety. I’ve done it before and I can do it again. Not rationalizing anything there but thanks for your input

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#16

Hope the comments don’t deter you from sharing your journey. We all learn from each other, and many of us are interested to hear about how you’re doing. Yes, a few posted their beliefs that may be contrary to yours, and we all could be a little more open minded and tolerant of each others views. I’m an AA guy myself, but we don’t claim to have a monopoly on sobriety. You continue to do you, and let us know how you’re doing. That is exactly what this app is for. FYI-I struggle with others strong opinions of what they believe as facts. I’m a power(s) greater than myself believer. When I hear all the religious undertones, I constantly have to remind myself to let them express their beliefs, and not cop a resentment. Please keep sharing. The silent majority supports you

#17

It might help to skip the drink tonight and start now. You’ve already said what you want, and your body is asking for relief. You can do this.

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#18

Dm me

#19

Did you drink today?