F*** I relapsed. 
shits hard dude. Idk. I don’t know anymore.
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You are only human. Tomorrow is a new day to start a new.
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Thanks dude it’s been a struggle. I’m a single mom with 2 teens and I have a habit after work of going to the lick and I’m realizing how crazy alcoholism is I forgot about my stomach bleeding and forgot about my desire for sobriety and that all went out the window when I got off work. Now here I am regretting it. I wish alcohol was never invented honestly.
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Get. Into. A. Program.
Asap. Do it. Make sober friends. Go to meetings. Network. Exchange bar time for sober hang outs. No excuses. Your kids need their mom. There are people who love you. If you can't do it for you right now, start by doing it for them. You're a mom, moms are tough as sh7t. You can do this.
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Thank you. I effing needed to hear this. Really. 
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You're welcome! You can do this, but not alone. If you could have done it alone, it would already be done, right? The first meeting you go to might suck. HeII the second and third one might too. That's okay, keep going to different meetings until you find your rhythm. Network. The women will come right to you and embrace you and you will have a support system. Be honest. Nobody in those rooms will be shocked by anything you say. For me the religious stuff was a turn off. But I stuck with it, and even a 100% atheist, I see the benefit from the fellowship.
You can do this.
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I ain’t trying to throw myself a pity party and I do want to get there one day and say I’m one year sober. I’m proud of everyone that makes it out of the mud. I’m just being honest and I’m not trying to say it’s cool to relapse either. Not when your health is involved and my kids need their mother I know all of that. I went to a private Christian school and I have faith. Life just gets hard especially when you have no family (I’ve alienated mine because they’re all on drugs) but drinking is no better. I joined this app after some research and I do believe that I will make it. I feel like because I’m trying to do better the devil is making it so much harder. And I’m one of those people who’d rather see people around me doing better. And rooting for them. But go and closet drink. Call me a hypocrite. I’m not making excuses I’m just saying. Shits hard. Harder than I ever thought it would be. I’ve been in this battle for 8 years. I started this app yesterday. I hope it helps. I really do…
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This ain’t going to be easy but you got support here !Have you tried rehab or IOP? Stay connected and don’t worry you’re not unique , everybody falls you just need to get back up !!
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We must all be of service to each other because only we truly know how it is. If you ever need supportive words of encouragement, and can't make a meeting, just know you are always welcome on this app.
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You have to start again and no choice. One day at a time and hope for the best.
There is a hope.
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Thanks brosees. I really effing appreciate y’all.
One day at a time. So grateful for this program and you people we are a very unique bunch. You’re human go to a meeting pick up a white chip we’ve all been there.
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I am not asking for attention. But I want to acknowledge everyone who’s commented and thank you for taking time to say something. Y’all real af. I’m gonna try harder because I know you’re all out there doing the best you all can too. I’m proud of you guys too. Thank you all so very much.
I’m just a click away if u need someone to talk to just message me seriously ! Stay strong and no matter what don’t drink or use
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You are human. Try again. Try to keep yourself busy and find different outlets. Different support systems and friends. Keep positive. It took me years and each day to try and try again. Little by little. Each day. Each week. Each month. Each year it gets better and you go a little further.
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Things like this happen. Addiction is a relapse disease. Most people relapse at least once within the first year if sobriety, sone even more. But, that happens. If it does, we just gotta pick back up the next day and push through the difficulty. Find what cause you to relapse, if anything specific? Don’t let this set you back, keep going if you need or want to chat, shoot me a message anytime. Keep working!
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Add up all the days you were sober let’s say 30 days right so if you were 30days sober now your 29 days sober and tomorrow you will be 30 days sober no one can ever take your clean time from you
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If you have a new sobriety date then you are a miracle! It can be as simple as that. You know the work that needs to be done. Learn and keep going! Progress not perfection. 
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hi sis.. i know it sucks.stomach bleeds are serious. but your body and brain are self healing if u give it a chance. you’re still here and alive to do the healing. you have another chance to heal-not everyone does. my only advice is to get a hydrate IV. and plan out just today. then tomorrow plan out just tomorrow. only one day at a time. and when one day becomes too much. focus on the next few hours in front of you. what do you plan to do for the rest of this day?
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I understand . But you have to keep going . You have to change your attitude and your latitude. I lose my son and then we lost my nephew. It’s not easy but you can make it. One day at a time . 
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