Fall transition... ugh

Recovery
#1

Spring and fall transitions always seem to mess with me.You know mentally physically chemically... sober or not. Mostly sober

My new medications, which are too many to list. Have me. I am feeling like a shell of myself. I don't like it. I don't like how they feel. Yeah, everyone says to try and tough it out. I don't know, misunderstood, or i'm that crazy and they are is just that correct. Not taking anything crazy, just some low. Dose antidepressants and normal low dose pain and nerve medication, which is pretty minimal considering my injuries. What to do... Just venting really. Yet feel Im on the brink of a major life cha ge and not sure its in the best of dorections. No idea what that change would be truly 0 idea. I just feel it coming.

#2

I get the feeling around the holidays. Even though I’m surrounded by family, sometimes I just feel empty. I can tell you that whatever change is coming your way, you know you’ll be much better off if you’re sober for it.

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#3

Solid point. And yes, you are right.

#4

Following you on IG. I’ll check out more later.

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#5

Were you injured serving in the military?

#6

Yes Sir. Not in combat, however. I'm not a "combat vet" per se.

#7

Thank you for your support. Plan on another video or 3 this week. Just having trouble adjusting to these meds.

#8

Sorry to hear that. Thanks for your service.

#9

It was my pleasure... of sorts.

#10

I had a series of abdominal surgeries years ago and they sent me home with 30 norcos after each one. I know myself too well so I took maybe 6-8 each time and flushed the rest. I lost my brother after the surgery and that’s when the drinking really kicked in.

#11

Army? USMC?

#12

Navy. 1999-2005. Yeah I have a lithium battery in my back that shorted out on me and almost killed me. That was a year and a half ago, and still it remains nothing done about it.We're working on it still...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss.I truly cannot imagine

#13

He was a veteran as well. Military Intelligence in the Army, taken at a little over 51 years.

Battery in your back sounds painful, and my brother was in. VA hospital and hospice when he passed. They’re not always great. Seems more should be done about that.

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#14

Hope you can sleep if you’re not sleeping already. Hope we both can. I have to be up in a few hours to go to work.

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#15

Thanks for hanging out.

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#16

Anytime I'm really glad to make your acquaintance. Yeah, I tried to sleep, but it didn't work. Doing this long enough to know sometimes it's just better to stay up a d crash hard then to lay in bed in pain, staring at my eyelids for hours.

51 is far too young and you're right. The VA is not always great. I'm happy to be getting pretty great care. There. Finally, after a 20 year fight for my life.

What bothers me is that my issues? I'm pretty minimal compared to. Let's say someone like your brother and other combat veterans and the craziness. N disregard that I've seen happens to those heroes as well.
Every single day in America, every single day.

#17

I work for government and military surplus wholesaler with a retail store attached so I see them ever day. Also saw plenty while taking care of my brother. It’s not pretty sometimes.

Yeah, 51 is way too young, and was the youngest of me and my siblings.

I’m really sorry for what you’re going through but at least you feel like you’re being taken care of. I had pretty good care when I had my issues. Good for the head.

#18

I'm originally from Elgin. Perhaps that explains it :rofl:

#19

I spent three years in Rockford before moving back this way in 2011.

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#20

OK. I have a cousin in Rockford. I remember when I was great and safe place...in 2017 i spent a few months out that way. Sad to see the decline.