Feeling a wave of depression. Usually when this happens I would drink to take my mind off of it. Im not going to because I don’t want to. But, what do I do when I feel this way? I watched my favorite shows. Watered my plants. I just don’t know why depression is a thing. I should be happy and grateful for everything I have in my life. I just want to cry and sleep.
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I sympathize with you Lisa! Depression and mental health affect me as well.
Moving my body makes my mind happy, especially if I’m surrounded by nature.
I find that writing my gratitudes help. Also vitamin b supplements are a must for me.
Reaching out is also a great way to feel better. And it’s ok to have a big cry!!! Without the alcohol the feelings that you suppressed are showing up. And it’s OK to feel them. Just look at them for what they are and accept them. Remember you are not alone in this!!! 
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Be proud of yourself for not taking that drink! I too suffer from depression and dealing with those waves in sobriety is tough. Reminding myself that the feeling is temporary and will pass does help me. Calling a sponsor or friend and just saying how I'm feeling is also helpful. And just getting outside- even just lying on the grass in the sun- makes me feel better. Hang in there! Know you are not alone and incredibly strong for staying sober.
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I can relate! Depression loves to grip at me when I least expect it. What helps me is seeing my therapist every week and getting my body moving. Also, connection to other sober friends. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Sending you my prayers.
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Give yourself credit for not picking up. There is no bad day a drink won't make worse.
Try doing something you wouldn't normally do. Something disruptive to give your mind something else to think about.
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If the depression lasts long or happens often seek out professional help. I suffered a lifetime of mental health issues and with medication I no longer go through depressive periods. That and AA are life savers. Remind yourself alcohol is a depressive. Be well!
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If your sober tracker is accurate, you’re at 1 week. If you drank like I drank, it will take more time than that.
It’s cliche af, but if you walk 10 miles into the woods you’ve gotta walk 10 miles to get back out.
Early sobriety is hard. Your body needs to re-learn how to self regulate. The book Alcohol Explained did a good job educating me on the changes my alcoholism made to my brain, and gave me a realistic timeline of how long it would take to readjust.
Also, meetings help. It helps robe around people who have recovered from something that you suffer from.
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Honestly, I’m a veteran that’s suffers PTSD and chronic depression. I had to learn how to embrace the suck. It makes you a real person and helps you identify and understand the difference. It’s honestly a red flag when says EVERY SINGLE Day i awesome
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Ever try meditation? It helps tremendously
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Depression is real, it’s the darkness that comes from memories, feelings and situations. It’s like looking thru a tunnel that is closing in and you will not make it out. Go for a run, a walk, mow the grass cut some flowers. You will still be depress but at least you’ll be distracted.
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Remember it‘s okay to cry! But also remember what’s good in your life.
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I do the same thing. Water plants. So pat yourself on the back because if it gives you peace. Even for a moment, that’s great. I also try new recipes. Nothing spectacular but experimenting in anything can get ya moving. Once I had an indoor hydroponic tabletop garden. Grew basil. The light therapy from it also helps with SAD. Just try new things 
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I’m coming off a couple months of depression. It was awful. Didn’t want to do the simplest things. Didn’t want to see anyone outside my family. But finally I started to force myself to go back to the gym, go walking, stay sober, turn the tv off after a certain time. Started to feel much better. I hope you feel better. Help is out there.
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Sobriety is painful
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I completely immerse myself into my job and AA and I put tattoos in my face what the f*** right it works
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My sobriety has to be a whole life experience. I quit drinking and smoking 4 1/2 years ago. I knew diet, nutrition and exercise were every bit as important as not drinking. I focus on spirituality and calm in my life today. I was very depressed until I learned how to properly nourish my body and soul. Good sleep is also extremely important. No matter what don't use, stay connected with your fellowship and talk about what's going on!
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My sponsor’s advise to me, and the appendix in Living Sober [https://www.8n8aa.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/Living-Sober.pdf] sums this issue up. It’s AA-approved literature. The most salient point is that doctors are doctors and we or others who may “play doctors” play with fire. Check it out.
Enjoy life and get on top of this…not necessarily in that order ; )
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I do not know how to deal with it either. I had almost 8 months and it didn't go away no matter what I tried differently. All I can say though, is please don't give in. I did, and now I'm awaiting court dates, and starting ALL over, with more headaches and obstacles to overcome this time around. Stay strong!
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I identify! What works for me is calling other people in recovery and and encouraging them. It gets me out of my head
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Lisa, these feelings subside with time but the really never go away. Welland on our higher power and our support. It's okay to feel these emotions, they make us crazy I know, I experience this still after 4 years. You'll be okay, keep up the good work in your recovery. Remember easy does it.
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