Fuck man. I had 4 years. Now I got nothing. To be honest I been fucking up for awhile but I just got my life back together. I can't go to a program or tell anyone cuz I can't go missing from the family. How do I fix this undetected.
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Being honest can be really hard but if you cannot find support in a family dynamic you can find one in a group. Everyone there understands and they are usually available everywhere. Best place to start
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You will always have those four years!
Remember we can always start again.
Rigorous honesty is the only way.
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Thanks Kevin but my family sucks. My mom is always trying to take my kids. I can't . She has done the worst things and usually when Iam sober doing good. I can't risk it.
I had a good support system up north buy down here I can't find anything like that
I actually have no friends right now because they are all on something so I might.
That can be a challenge. Many of them have virtual sessions now as well if nothing is near by. Don't beat yourself up for a failure but commit to not repeating it and start again. It's life but it's also something you already know you are capable of
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Everyday is a new day. Just because you’ve been fucking up doesn’t mean you have to continue. Even if it’s to start for a day, a week, a month. Re train your brain. Remember your why.
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If you don't reach out to someone, you will do it again. Go to a meeting, get some numbers.
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You can help by going away and taking whatever bs scam you’re working with you, Thomas Johnson
Go find a meeting. You can do zoom.
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Get clean. Come clean. Stay clean. NA dot org
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Keep busy. That’s my answer. 2 full time jobs Tired at the end of the day and 2,paychecks weekly!! Sober , happy, lots of money in the bank!!
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Just be honest with yourself. Ive hid my addiction all my life and it sucks. I know how you feel lying about being sober. Just try again. Relapse sucks but its happened alot to many of us
Let me start by saying this, I'm sorry if I come across harsh... You can't fix this undetected. I promise your family knows something is wrong. They may not know what but they know it is something. They may even have their suspicion. That said if a detox program is what you need then there is no more shame in that than there is in a hospital for cancer. Both are diseases. You can go to AA, people who are afraid of what will happen to them is who it was designed for.
Hey Roz, how has it been going?
Stephen S is absolutely right
Sounds like you have a dysfunctional family thing going on, and who doesn’t?
The pointe here is you need help and can’t do this alone.
When we’re sober, then f up and relapse, we don’t start off from like when we first started using. It starts off where you left off. And it only gets worse.
Please get some help. You can’t be good to your child if you’re not working on yourself. This, I have personal experience with.
And you said yourself that your mom, family were trying to get custody even while you’re sober. Don’t let this happen because your not.
Don’t give up!
Let us know how you’re doing, PLEASE
Love & Light
Chelle​:dizzy:
Just do everything online. Meetings, chat, support all of it can be done rather innocuous
Go to a meeting nobody needs to know what you are doing unless you want them to know.
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Your still breathing and that means a future
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What is your drug of choice