I am so mad at myself.. 31 days down drain

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I am so mad at myself.. 31 days down drain :sob: how can I be so stupid.. am I ever gonna get better… or am I gonna be this way forever.. im starting to see no point.. I feel worthless… Stupid.. angry… hurt..

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#2

It’s ok just keep getting back up …. I’ve met people with years and years of sobriety that have relapsed and they came back… today is what counts

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#3

I can’t get away from the stuff..

#4

Can you seek inpatient treatment?

#5

I’m scared too

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#6

At least go and talk to a facility and see how it works :smiley: …. It’s better than the alternative

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#7

How do I even go about that … I don’t have family to help me start that journey.. I’m 23.. the guy in with is NOT supportive of the choice for me to get sober…. He would freak out if I left and went to rehab.. I’m lost and confused

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#8

In sobriety you have to make tough choices and sometimes those choices are people… as far as a facility look one up near you and give them a call. You have a sponsor? Call your sponsor maybe they can refer you to a place.

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#9

Get mad get pissed whatever it takes. Sounds like you have to set boundaries. I don't know about your relationship. I do know you have to do it for you. It doesn't work any other way. If he is not onboard to get sober it is a up hill battle and probably end badly. You want to talk I will. Prayers always :pray::tulip:

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#10

Jenna, don’t be angry at yourself. It’s rare for someone to not have a relapse. Thank goodness you are still alive. I had 39 days sober in December and started to drink again. I too was mad and upset at myself. My family convinced me to go to into action recovery center in Houston, TX. I am so thankful that I did. I did 35 days in rehab and 2 months in sober living. I now have 97 days sober and have found my recovery. My obsession and desire for alcohol is gone. Please call them and ask to speak to Paul or Shane. Tell them Debbie from Florida recommended you. I promise you won’t be sorry. Plus any man who doesn’t want you to find sobriety isn’t worth staying with. The # for the rehab is 844-694-3576

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#11

Breathe. Slow your negative self talk down-shame motivates and improves nothing. Things happen,
Situations unfold exactly how they should and in their own time.
I saw that you responded that you were scared to go to treatment. I had never known a safe home, so surrendering seemed almost dangerous. Once i arrived at treatment for the first time and realized I was safe, I surrendered. It was like I had been holding my breathe my whole life trying to keep my house
Of cards from crumbling and once I laid it all out on the table, got honest, and surrendered-I
Cool breathe. Let me tell you-that first breath-better than any drink or drug. All you need to get to treatment is 5 seconds of insane courage to simply start the process.

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#12

Those says aren't down the drain, just pick them back up and live life the best you can. You can do it again and stay sober, I know you can.

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#13

Love u have to do this for you and love you more… tht where it starts.. if he don’t want you to get sober don’t you fine tht a bit weird he should want you to get better love … he should b motivating you to get better… tht not love and not preaching jus speaking and hope this helps and there is a reason tht benefiting him as to why he want you to stay in bad shape but like I said you have to love you more and realize this is about u not anyone else’s

#14

And it happens love as long as u get bk on track tht all tht matter staying there will hurt u but getting bk on track will help and not Sheri ding yourself with ppl tht don’t want the best for u won’t help

#16

I just lost 5 months 3 days ago . And I’m in that dark place also . I’m back at my AA meetings and taking it one day at a time but I feel so depressed

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#17

This too shall pass :pray:t3:

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#18

If you can’t get away from alcohol and you’re struggling, don’t be down on yourself. I had three years clean and sober and I lost it. I was embarrassed to go back into the rooms to get help but I had to! If your partner does not support you, you might want to think twice about your relationship because I was there and my partner made it near difficult for me and I went back to drinking and I regret it every day of my life…you have to do it for YOU!!!

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#19

It’s ok get back up on that horse.. you got this

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#20

You can do this.

#21

It’s not about the set back. It’s about how you move past it. Everyday is a fight some hard and some easy. Just keep moving forward.