I didn’t make it guys. While I’m not drunk, I did have a few this evening. I’m proud that I was able to stop but disappointed that I started at all. Restarting tomorrow. I knew it was going to be tough… just didn’t realize how much will power I was actually lacking.
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Don’t beat yourself up. Alcohol is the real deal!! I started and quit a bunch of times. At least you’re still alive and breathing!! Tomorrow is a new day.
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Well, just pay attention to what brought you into drinking again in the first place (triggers like movies/friends/specific situations/dehydration), and just keep working on yourself tomorrow. At the end of the day, I’m glad you’re safe and didn’t end up in a worse situation. The first 3 months are the most difficult to get into a healthy rhythm and build momentum. Give yourself some grace and reach out to a friend to help keep you on track, even if it’s just a friend via phone.
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Hang in there ! This isn’t easy but glad u stopped yourself , start fresh tomorrow … 1 day at a time
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Been there! Off n on the past few months. Reminded of when I quit smoking cigarettes...many failed attempts b4 i did it! Practice makes perfect! Never give up! We can only fail when we give up
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No worries at all Molly. I was kind of concerned that you were going to an event that was going to test you with just one day of sobriety under your belt.
Please don't take this as judgment or negativity, as it certainly isn't my place to tell you what to do, as I certainly put myself in situations that I shouldn't have been in, and set myself up for failure.
When we're in early recovery, the NEED is active. I needed to be locked up in rehab for a minimum of 20 days to out a wall between myself and booze so that I could get my mind right to the extent that I was thinking for myself. I couldn't go a single day alone. Going to an event like the one you attended, especially where people don't know what you're trying to do and offering you drinks would have lead to the same result for me too.
Thankfully, now, I don't put myself in dangerous situations unnecessarily, but I can go anywhere in the world, and happily say "No thanks, I'll have a seltzer" without any anxiety being induced at all.
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I set myself up for failure last time 16 days sober! Work/community function...free beer bar. EVERYONE drinking...including me. I know now to stay away for now
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Keep Comin
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Coming
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It’s not about willpower, you need a program
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So many wonderful encouraging experiences. Thank you for sharing, be as gentle as you can with yourself and stay out of your head, you are not that person anymore. You are so loved and not alone we have all been there.
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I feel you…
I slipped last night. I am now starting over today.
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Please don’t beat yourself up! You just start again. Don’t quit quitting. Alcohol is a b@t$h but you can do this. I know you got this because you were here and holding yourself accountable with this post. Keep on keeping on!
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Hey there’s more to stop drinking than not picking up the bottle, there’s something deeper there. Look at the bright side though you have already completed step one (We admitted we were powerless over alcohol that our lives had become unmanageable) and you are holding yourself accountable for your mistake/slip up, that’s a huge step in the right direction, I wouldn’t and couldn’t do that early on at the start of my journey.
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Addiction isn’t weakness. It’s sickness. Willpower cannot bring cancer into remission. Nor can it bring addiction into recovery.
Treatment of the disease is important. It took me decades to accept that. I hope you aren’t as stubborn as I am.
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I “quit” at least 5 times before I actually was able to stop for good. It takes time, SP0990
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Hey girl, I’ve been back and forth for almost a year. Don’t beat yourself up, you’ll get to where you want to be, each day is a day to start again 
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I don't think it's a matter of willpower. What we need is a full mental change. Seek treatment. You cannot do this alone. No one can. If you need help reach out. Depending on your insurance you might be able to get into a place in your state or even a different one. My old insurance took me all over the country.
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Our will power can only be used to turn over our will to a HP, whenever I tried to sill myself to stop it didn’t last long, but asking HP to lift the obsession just for today has always worked, one day at a time. So glad you’re sharing and back in the fold!
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Well said David.
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