I drank last night

I had almost a fifth, probably 14-15 drinks. It had been almost 20 days. I drove my car.
This is the last time. I’m done with this. Getting time and then blowing it. Drunk me is not the real me. Im kissing her goodbye.

I would really appreciate some words of encouragement. Let me know I’m not alone. Thanks.

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You’re definitely not alone but are you attending meetings? I suggest you do 90 in 90 days to keep you accountable

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Thanks Luis. I’ll do that.

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I don't know much about the alcohol. But I know any sobrieties worth hanging on to you can do it, if I can you can.

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Get to a meeting.

I suggest you look at connecting with some type of community locally or continue here in Loosid to check it everyday for added support

You can do this

Get up Mel! Like Kris said If this drunk @#$ can you can. Ensure your better future.

Mel I know the drunk you is not the real you as the drunk me was not the real me. I pray to God to help me and HE always does. I suggest you socialize with supportive people whether at AA, a Church, or some other sober functions.

You can do it Mel! I had a real difficult time understanding honesty. I always told myself I could stop drinking anytime I wanted. Until I tried to quit. I was lying to myself that my life was more important than the alcohol. The truth was there was NOTHING more important than the drink. I think once I accepted just how much alcohol had ahold of me and realized just how powerless I was my desperation played a much bigger part. The gift of desperation!!

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you can do it :raised_hands::raised_hands::raised_hands:

I second this! 90 in 90 really helped me!

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Have you read the doctor's opinion and bills story. Find the first step in Bills story then see what it was that relieved of the obsession to drink.

Don't beat yourself up, we all are human and not perfect. just remember that you're only 1 drink away from your next drunk. So as long as u never take that 1st drink today and you will not get drunk. It really is one day at a time sometimes even one moment at a time

One of the things that made me want to stop is how using or drinking made me feel about myself. The other BIG thing was is not being able to like who I was. What made me want to change which is necessary to stay sober is not liking who I was. But if you stop, go to meetings and take action and be willing to change which can be hard because of having to let go of the old, you can grow into a person that you are happy with. I promise you! Let go and grow!!

Mel, you can do this but with real help. I too was a chronic relapser way too long! Finally I got sick and tired of losing every battle against my alcoholism/addiction. I went to in person meetings every day for way over a year, got sponsors, did the 12 steps to the very best of my ability multiple times, did service work and it really worked!
Almost 16 years later and still HAPPILY & GRATEFULLY SOBER.
I’m here if you are serious and want to talk.

There may be times we slip and make mistakes. It’s ok, sure it can be frustrating and disappointing but it’s ok. What matters the most is you get right back to recovery. Go to a meeting, get your white chip again and get back on track. If you can’t take it one day at a time right now, take it one minute at at time if you have to. Meditate and seek your higher power. You can do it and I support you. You’re never alone

I’m sorry to hear that you felt your only choice was to begin drinking again. However you made it back and God spared you from jails, institutions and death. Remember only 1 in 10 make it. Which one are you going to be?

WE have a solution! Long term long term sobriety is available to each and everyone of us.
Three questions my sponsor asked me was..

  1. Are you done?
  2. Have you had enough pain?
  3. Are you willing to go to any lengths to stay sober?
    If you answered yes to all three, then it’s time to get busy.
    Here are the suggestions I took…..
    •Attend a meeting every day, sometimes twice a day especially during the holiday season.
    •Read the first 164 pages of the Big Book.
    .•Find a sponsor who has a strong spiritual life, attends meetings frequently, not only talks the talk, but walks the walk. Preferably someone who knows the Big Book
    •Work all 12 steps with a sponsor.
    •Find a God of your understanding and pray/meditate throughout the day

Most importantly…. Just don’t stop. Live and breathe this program in all areas of your life. I did and it’s been 30 + years since I had a drink. Best wishes.:pray:

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You're definitely not alone, I've been struggling to get any substantial time in recovery, but we have to remember it's just one day at a time. Today is the only day that matters. You should get to a meeting today. Take care!!!

Great advice