I feel so alone and questioning why I’m even doing

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I feel so alone and questioning why I’m even doing this. Going through a divorce and staying sober while all these unfamiliar emotions take over me is pretty brutal. I keep thinking of how i made it throught my previous relationship ending and it was alcohol. Vodka, friends, and fun made it much easier to navigate such a blow but in the end the healing never took place, it was hidden. So now i sit. Sit in this terrible place of feeling every bit of wrong in my life, alone. And thats not because ive wronged anyone…People are just busy, living their own lives, and muddling through their own obstacles.

One minute a time.
I’m 1 month alcohol free (18 year addiction), energy drink free, soda free, and candy free.

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#2

Welcome. Very emotional in the beginning. I’m still emotional and I love it

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#3

Just remember you’re not alone. We’re all in here sober, I’ve been nine years sober and every day is a struggle for me. It’s the best decision I’ve ever decided to do, is to get sober. Now I focus on my mental, emotional, and physical health. I’m a work in progress. I know that I’m never alone, I have people to talk to just like you do, you can always reach out to me if ever you feel you need to talk to someone going through sobriety.

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#4

Sorry you're going through all this...I've been going through the same over the last 5 months and all I can tell you is keep working your program, reading, praying, talking to others in the program and go to meetings. It does get some what easier and it will continue to get better, one day, one hour, one minute at a time!! Hang in there and just stay sober.

#5

I here and I'm one of y'all I'm 5 years 7 months sober yes it's a struggle but my sober life beats my past life stay focused on all the good in the future

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#6

Welcome! I am sorry for your difficult times but trust me when I say that sobriety is the easier, softer way to deal with them. Other people you know may be busy with their loves but Loosid is always here for you. That's brave of you to engage on here - keep it up!

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#7

I hope you get some support Suzanne. You're definitely not alone :pray:

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#8

@suzanne248851 You're NOT ALONE in this. Granted we can't all be there physically. We are here virtually.
You want to question why you're doing this? Here let me remind you of what it was like before you decided to get sober. We call it pitiful incomprehensible demoralization. You're more than welcome to have it back in your life. We'll give you a full 100% refund .. if you want it. That's IF you want it.
If not and you are willing to go through ANY length to get what we have, no matter what, then you're ready to take certain steps.
Yes, going through a divorce PHUQING SUCKS. However, God will not give you anything that you can't handle. All you have to do is look up and ask for help. The emotions you're going through have been bottled up all the years you've been drinking. Now they are coming out because there is nothing to numb them.
It's like this. When any precious metal is processed. The metallurgist has to take it from it's solid state to a liquid state. The only way to do it is by heat. Once in the liquid state all the impurities (your emotions) rise to the top and are scraped away. Them the heat is turned off the metal returns back to its solid state and the process is repeated over and over again until ALL the impurities are removed.
YOU my friend are being refined. God wants the best for you and out of you. The only way to do it is to turn up the heat.
Notice that your "friend's are not around? It's because you're trying to better yourself.
Now it's time for the healing process to start. Once you've been injured healing is not as simple as you think. There is some pain that you WILL have to go through. The cool part is that we are here/hear for you.
Nothing will get done as long as you're sitting still. Get off your a$$ and get into action. Again you are NOT alone. WE, your Loosid famBAMMily, are by your side.
Have you ever worked any type of recovery program? If not today is the day to start. I can and am willing to come along side of you and guide you through the 12 steps of recovery. Add me. I come in peace.
:tada::tada: CONGRATULATIONS :tada::tada: on your 1 month. That's a good start. You may want to have chocolate around though. You don't want to put your body in shock.
The choice is yours.
Freely I give to you.
Respectfully,
Michael.

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#9

@suzanne248851 Michael you are amazing.. always saying something positive to me whenever I go off on rants about difficulties that I struggle to find the answer for!!!
Suzanne... the man is the absolute greatest supportive companion in my life as of right now.. I will always trust his direction because, it comes from love and nothing else!!
He helped me through all of my hardship and believed in me when I needed it the most..
He is a leader, he is honest,and most importantly he is living his best life!!
Please Suzanne, take my advice and reach out to him :pray: he will not let you down and,most of all

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#10

Go to the rooms. You can find support there. I am glad you are strong enough to look at that nasty darkness. The horrible feelings. That is how you get out. By facing it. By living through it. Believe in yourself.

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You can trust him

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#12

Suzanne, I suggest going to in person meetings daily & nightly.
Being proactive in my program, meeting recovering alcoholics, making new friends and doing service helped me tremendously!
I went thru a divorce at 6 months. AA and the sober community carried me thru, but I did my part. I’m eternally grateful :heart_eyes:
I’m here if you want to talk

#13

We're doing this because we've proven the other way is worse. I wonder why I haven't heard from my peeps when I feel like giving up. I had to learn to reach out to them and not isolate. The emotions when 1st sober were terrible I'd ride them out, it doesn't last forever. Make plans, take time for lots of self care!

#14

I'm not one to suggest meetings usually, but I think you would benefit greatly from keeping your focus on your metamorphosis and being around people who understand.

#15

Your doing great don’t forget how far you have come your stronger than you think and I can understand the alone feelings you will continue to get stronger more confident in each passing day just keep going your helping so many people by sharing keep shining :sparkles::sparkles::blush::blush:

#16

Congratulations for doing something for yourself. You have great courage, I can tell. You got this! Find a support network to help you get through. AA or NA 🫂

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#17

Just try to remember you a lot stronger than you think and you will be able to get through this sober. There is nothing taking a drink is gonna make it better.

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#18

Your not alone , I've made it through two divorces sober , it's not easy but can be done , try not to isolate yourself, get out , go to a mtg , make sure you celebrate every small victory , together they'll add up to bigger and better outcomes ! You got this ! Here if you need to talk or vent