I fucked up bad. I drank after 76 days sober. I had 3 shots after my granny’s funeral. My loss is no excuse for that. I know I need to practice self compassion but I physically feel the shame in my body. So here I am. Starting all over.
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Better to start over then go on a year long bender. Own it, feel it and move on. It’s a relapse… it happens. You will be alright.
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That shame is a good thing. You will remember that the next time you have an urge. I relapsed after 121 days and the feeling was awful. Keep your head up!
I think a lot of us know what it’s like to feel shame so intensely. I’m glad you’re reaching out and you seem very self aware. Just keep moving forward
Let's call it a slip up and try not to dwell on it. One thing that helps me the most is focusing on things that I like doing and feeling in sobriety. You're still here, and you still have the choice of sobriety.
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Your not starting over. Take this as a learning moment. You now know when you pick up the shame comes flooding back. When I pick up the hopeless and helplessness comes immediatly. Hang in there you will feel like yourself again soon.
Hope youre recovering. Don't give up because of it, get back up. What could you have done better? Better in person support system? Utilization of that support system before things went bad?
We grieve in our own way. The whole sobriety counter makes us think that we're starting over, but that's bu11$hit. You've learned a lot in the last couple of months. Keep the stuff you've learned, and build on it.
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"We all can learn how to breathe submerged; we just have to find that one person worth drowning for" - that one person is you. My condolences, but don't let the shame linger around too long 
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Today is a new day just work on it one day at a time.
See it as another learning and growing opportunity and not as starting over. You’ve already started, just continue and learn from this, regret it but don’t beat yourself up. You got this.
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It’s ok! Now you know that you need to work on handling your emotions during grief and loss. That’s the lesson learned (in my opinion). Don’t be so hard on yourself. We are all a work in progress. 3 shots could have been a full on bender, but it wasn’t. You stopped there and are here on this app ready for support, took ownership of what happened, and are ready to get right back onto your path of recovery. Recovery isn’t linear. No one is perfect. We are here for you and I am happy you made it through this. Keep going and staying strong. 
Don't minimize it or try and justify what happened.it did happen and you already accepted it,recognized why it happened and what to do next time. you should be proud of yourself for the strength and commitment to yourself by continuing your sobriety.
I take the view that shame and guilt will hold you back they are traitor emotions that have joined the other side. What helped me most when I relapsed was hearing from others in recovery that it is not something to beat myself up emotionally over but that’s what alcoholics do the relapse. It is called alcoholism not “alcoholwasim”.
…they relapse* not ‘the’ relapse -typo
I’m in the same boat as you!
I had 11 years and relapsed a year before I took the drink. I stopped going to meetings and being of service. “I got this” I thought to myself. I drank again for 4 years and it cost me my marriage. I’m back in the rooms today and had two years on Sept 1st. I can’t change the past. I know the mistakes I made and today I choose the easier softer way.
I’m in it for life…one day at a time.
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It happens the important part is still trying and didn't give up, whenever I relapsed it was epic...
Don’t beat yourself up. It was a slip. Nobody needs to let you know what you did as you already know. Just hit the meetings and touch basis with sponsor. Today is today. Hang in there
Lots of us have done it don’t beat yourself up sweetheart don’t let the disease win