I had went 125 days without a drink. Then me

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I had went 125 days without a drink. Then me being the type of person that I am, I decided that drinking would be alright. It obviously was not and I immediately went on a binge. I'm such an idiot and a failure

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#2

You are not a failure. You have a disease and will power is no match. We’re you going to meetings? Have a sponsor?

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#3

Don't beat yourself up I was drink free for 03 years then a friend came into my life who is no longer my friend and I got in trouble. I got in trouble to the point where I needed medical help. I got through it and I'm back on the right Road my kids hate me. But I'm taking care of me. And that's what you need to do.

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#4

I had 18 months, lost it for 6 months, and now have 8 days. You're not a failure, and you can stop. The fact that you're here is brave, and I wish you luck!

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#5

I tried AA a few times and it wasn't for me. I've been reading literature. Maybe need to find a non religious group

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#6

I can relate had 2 years and thought I had everything under control and boom got hit with reality I couldnt do it alone day 3 sober after a 3 year run do what works for you

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#7

I can relate to your story man

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#8

You are pretty much the type of person we all are while we are relapsing and figuring it out.

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#9

AA is not religious.

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#10

Too religious for me. And the fact that they say their way is the only way is one thing that I can't stand. I know I have a disease but I don't want to go to AA again

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#11

Ok

#12

It’s ok . You can always restart . You got this!

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#13

Try a Self management and recovery training (SMART)

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#14

I'm back on Day 4. I know I can, just don't want to consistently mess up a good thing

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#15

Congratulations! I feel you on that . That worries me . What if I stay sober for a good amount of time and mess it all up in just one night . I tend to go on binges as well. I don’t want to go back but the way I am I probably will . It’s apart of the disease. I think the important part is to not give up , be patient and understanding of the sickness your fighting . I’m happy for you that you are back on man :muscle:t3: it’s not easy . You definitely should give yourself credit for getting back up after the fact .

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#16

Thank you and I am looking for help on staying accountable as well. I believe this app can help me. I truly appreciate your kindness. I'm here for you as well if you ever need it

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#17

Your disease wants you to think "you got this". You recognized this, and admitted it. You are certainly NOT a failure. In AA, we don't beat our fallen.

How many years did you carry on thinking drinking was all right? Its progress, not perfection.

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#18

There is an alternative to AA. Go visit the website alcohol.org. there's plenty of reading material there for you. And they describe other than AA

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#19

First you aren’t a failure. Second thing is I don’t think AA or NA are religious groups. Spiritual, yes.

I was turned off by God talk too. I committed to 90 meetings in 90 days. 90 in a row. I had all
Kinds of thoughts and emotions until I heard enough people share I realized what I need to to keep going back.

Just a thought homie. Be well. You are NOT an idiot.

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#20

My friend you are neither idiot or failure. Not even close. You won 125 times. Your record is 125 wins and 1 binge. Also an idiot would be smart enough to so quickly recognize the mistake and admit it here. You are a smart and brave winner who can rack up another win tomorrow.

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