Be kind to yourself. Choose to pick yourself up and take the lesson learned moving forward! You still have that 125 and you can have so many more!!!
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Give yourself some grace. Life happens. Remember what you learned and try not to do it again. This is not easy and sometimes it isn't fun.
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keep it up 
I did the same thing. Sometimes it takes things like this to happen for you to realize you can't control it. Now that you've gone through this, remember this moment the next time those thoughts creep into your mind. We can't drink in moderation. Remember how good you felt sober. You can get back on track! You got this!
"I am not defined by my relapses, but my decision to remain in recovery despite them."
AA is not religious. It will provide you with the “answer” to a baffling disease by living one day at a time sober and not picking up that FIRST drink or drug.
Don’t beat yourself up just start over. This just goes to show how powerful this rotten disease is.
You are definitely not an idiot or a failure 
I’m sure the vast majority of people on this app have had the exact same “You know what, I can drink it’s no big deal” and then “Oh sh*t, REALLY bad call…” experience.
Be kind to yourself, and get right back on it. It’s only a fail if you give up.
I’m rooting for you!
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I detoxed last summer and was sober for just about as long as you and then relapsed thinking, "one won't hurt, on Thanksgiving. Within a week I was back to drinking 20 small bottles (nips) of whiskey a day starting first thing the morning.
I checked back into detox in March and have been sober since and feeling positive now. Now I have the added fortune of knowing that I CAN'T have "one" right now, and maybe not ever and have put thinking about it out of my mind.
Do NOT beat yourself up about it.