I haven't felt this f**king sad in such a long time. I wish I didn't feel this pain right now but I know it's better than using something to take it all away. I am completely lost in my own head and heart right now.. idk what im supposed to do anymore. I called people, I did the things I was supposed to do but I guess reality is that they can't take my feelings away, they can't make me all better- I'm too used to instant gratification of complete numbness that I got from drugs. this hurts, but I'll be okay.
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I know how you feel. I do. It helps me to get my mind off it. I love to watch movies so I do that and it does help me. I am in a house with 27 other guys rn. A few of them I'm very close with and I find being around them, when I feel that way, is annoying (lol) but it helps very much some times.
I know motivation is hard but try to do something your passionate about. I'll be praying for you....
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A big part of my struggle was lack of patience for too many years to feel good without using. Finally stuck it out with meetings this time around and it's been a blessing!...Hang in there Avery, it definitely does get better
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Feeling similarly… I wish I could unequivocally say it diminishes with time, and I believe it will, however mine seems random lately… like it’s diminishing but then I get hit hard again… and so it goes. I started putting plans in place when Im feeling good. A friend told me she just takes a sick day when it’s bad. Remember to nurture oneself by watching tv or movies, playing games on a computer, etc, isn’t “doing nothing”… your brain is taking the time to heal, so let it have a sick day to rest and heal.
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Hang in there. I too a going though the ups and downs. I try to keep myself occupied with shows, journaling, meetings etc. these things help me.
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The good news is that pain will pass! It’s part of the true healing process. We stuffed or numbed ourselves for many years. So now we feel all that we avoided.
We experience extreme growth as well. Keep talking, going to meetings, BE OF SERVICE TO OTHERS is the best way I ever found to cope with pain. Miracles are created in service. Also writing in a journal is helpful.
Hang in there, you’ll get thru this​:heartpulse:
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Hang in there. These feelings are so normal. When your Head finally clears out of the fog you begin to feel things that your not used to feeling. I know when my mind cleared I cried alot because every little thing bothered me. I promise it gets better. Just hang on. Get to a good speaker meeting that always seems to help.
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You will be. I have a safety action plan for moments like this, which my mental health team helped me create, that reminds me of the things that help me get out of my own head. Music, being outdoors,yoga, prayer, meditation, speaking to certain people, etc. If you don't have one, I would urge you to create one. It is helpful, but what is even more helpful is making it habit to revert to these positive actions.
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I've been there for sure
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Doing better than some .
Like me …. I can’t handle my reality at times so I’m still Dillon and dabbing just bc change and realizing where I’m at currently is too much to bear for someone like me .ima say you’re strong person .
Idk s*** bjt j recognize when someone is genuine and being real.
I appreciate you sharing
Also change is sometimes difficult, not always bad tho.
I read your posts and they are consistent, and I appreciate your candor .
Putting yourself out there for ppl like me who are truly scared to get clean a little glimmer of hope.
I would take the depression over this calling to cop n bop anyday
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You're having feelings that most every alcoholic or drug abuser feelings when first starting this journey. It won't last forever and pushing through is so worth it. Hang in a a much improved life and you are worth it!
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I think it’s better to be sad than dead and the longer without IT the better the emotions balance out
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Hang in there, everything will get better,
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Day by day minute by minute if necessary
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You're doing all the right things. Those feelings WILL eventually pass and you'll be stronger for it...
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I’m feeling the same way. It’s my first time on this app - and I was gonna delete it… but wow, you just described how I feel inside - you broke down what makes a person lonely… and that where I am right now… as well. 
So, Thank you for your honesty and integrity in sharing and being vulnerable here… because I need that.
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That instant gratification is such a vicious rollercoaster! I struggled and still struggle with that. For me, I've come to find I just needed to find more confidence in myself, so I started with the most minor changes. Whether work or personal, I would make a small change and make it habitual. Once I saw a positive impact, I tried hard to practice gratitude! I'm not sure if I am always loving myself but I sure him a lot more than I idea too! I'm proud of you for reaching out! We are all here for you!
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Stop doing things that make you Sad. Cause and effect. IM IN AGREEMENT THAT YOUR DRINKING AND USING CAREER IS RUINED. AND YOUR RECOVERY IS NOW POSSIBLE. YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES. NOW DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES
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Vulnerability & honesty is the only thing that can you through these first few months/years of sobriety. keep coming, you can always text me!
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🏄‍♂:hibiscus:
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