I can relate to not wanting to do the steps n all the other steps. I found lots of amazing things online that help me with support n very kind people
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Sometimes, it's imperative.
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B grateful for where you are at.
I was always told keep it simple
Go back to the basics
Just don’t drink
Or drug
I’m
Not sober
I’m actually living a double life and it kills me to go home to a naive partner and straight up lie
Life is better sober
You don’t have to lie so much.
Yo keep it simple for today
You are doing the right thing by reaching out and venting
Your not alone
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The steps are the core of the program. Personally, I could "just go to meetings" and stay sober. But the steps are what change us from self-centered to spiritually centered.
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Find a hobby? The book and the steps were key to my recovery and most other alcoholics.
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I can totally relate. I’m an athiest and the religion-centric AA model is not my jam. I’ve come to realize that my need for alcohol was usually related to a need to either dissociate from feelings/perceived reality, or a desire to just feel happy for an evening… but then so often it was on and a week later I’d be violently I’ll after blacking out for three days. I’m learning to observe myself and my feelings, and rather than empowering something outside myself like booze or AA, I’m committed to finding power in my choice in how I perceive things including my feelings. It’s really difficult sometimes but I think ultimately it’s my only solution. I have to heal myself, and false and external solutions only lead me back to a bad place.
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Have you checked out Annie Grace’s work from The Naked Mind? She has a 30 day alcohol experiment that has a virtual community, videos and science based teachings that help shift focus. Could be another option for you.
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Everyone’s recovery is different. The “big book” the “steps” might now be for your recovery path and that’s 100% okay!
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I find I take what I can from every meeting. Some, like my meeting today, was magic. Some, you just take the scraps. More, if you download the app, they usually do an ok job telling you what the meetings in your area are about. That way, you can pick and choose the ones you like. Hope that helps!
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I am in the same situation I need a support system but my case is a little different I work 6 days a week from 5 at night to 6 am n I find it really hard to not only find a group to go to but the motivation to want to go to a group when I'm exhausted and I know I got to get back up working a few hours but I really really need to help because I'm falling quick I feel like I'm living a double life too but the cracks are starting to get come apart and I want to save myself before I destroy myself again
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I go to a lot of meetings and I know people that don’t bury themselves into the book or the steps. The meetings seem to be different for each individual that attends. I certainly don’t bury myself in the big book. I’m there to share my experience, strength and hope in hopes of helping anyone who might need to hear what my story is like. My advice would be simple. Don’t drink and go to meetings. Don’t sweat everything else. As long as you do those two things you’ll amaze yourself!!!!
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There's a lot to YouTube videos about support and sobriety. When I can't make a meeting or if I'm not in the mood to be social, I'll find something online, on YouTube. There's TED talks too on sobriety.
That's the second time today that "The naked mind" has randomly popped up to me!! Ok universe...I'm listening and will listen to it on my headphones at work tomorrow 
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You can try smart recovery cbt
Faith isn't trying to make yourself believe something. That's literally make-believe. It's on God to prove Himself. You just gotta ask. You're doing good. If we're misfits, it's because we stayed true to ourselves. Better to have just a band-aid to remove than a wall. Do it for you and celebrate when people remove themselves from your life. You're no fool to talk down to anymore in their eyes.
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Kids - volunteering working ir hanging with - something about being with an age group who can take the most mundane thing like traveling from point a to point b and engaging in most carefree and joyous form, skipping beats our slumped shouldered trudging - more than just a metaphor - allow urself to be silly and turn that keen self loathing perspective into a tool for humorous observation - but hey what do i know!
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"Take your time hurry up choice is yours but dont be late" Nirvanna
Meetings are all about fellowship. God is hardly ever mentioned. Btw, it’s a higher power so you can chose your own. AA saved my life; all of my life.
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Try this. Science-based and also uses the cognitive behavioral therapy model.
Doctors, therapists, counselors are options.