I never want to drink again

Struggling Help
#22

Thank you. :100:

#23

Thanks Carrie. So for this platform has been eye opening and I’m very hopeful I can break the cycle and live a clean life.

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#24

Thank you for sharing Omar. It’s always gets out of control within a blink of an eye.

#25

Thanks for the encouragement Todd.

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#26

Thanks Mark. I will be attending meetings for the first time soon. I am open to new channels of support.

#27

Thank you Kate!! Your words were so helpful

#28

Welcome

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#29

You pick up the first drink because You Keep On Believing the LIE; that this time, everything will be okay. But it never is, is it?

It's going to be a little bit rough and painful for awhile but you need to remember what you're feeling right now the next time you have a desire to pick up.

Play the scene all the way forward. You might get some satisfaction for a while but sooner or later you're going to be right back where you are right now with more shame to carry around realizing that you accomplished absolutely nothing. In Alcoholics Anonymous we call this the "Insidious cycle of insanity."

I highly recommend that you start going to AA meetings. Take in 90 meetings in 90 days. If you have the time, go to more than one meeting a day. When I first got sober I practically lived in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. I wanted sobriety more than anything in the world and I was willing to do whatever it took to get it.

I also got a sponsor who took me through the steps. I started getting active and I had phone numbers that I used all the time. That was almost 9 years ago.

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#30

Welcome! It took me a while to break the cycle and get off the hamster wheel. As far as meetings go, there are several great Alano Clubs in the area (Santa Ana, Garden Grove, Fountain Valley, Costa Mesa, HB). We are very blessed to have so much recovery here in OC...

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#31

Go to AA and find a sponsor, tell them what’s up so you know what steps to take, one day at a time you’re going to be fine but you gotta revamp everything you’r doing because apparently it’s not working. We’re all here for you!

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#32

Thank you! I found a meeting that works for me this Thursday. My intention is to start noticing the what works and why doesn’t work

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#33

Amen

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#34

Just don’t drink today. :blush:

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#35

Tell yourself—“I choose not to drink today.”
Don’t beat yourself up…

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#36

I never wanted to drink again for 20 years before I did anything about it. Don’t be like me. Don’t believe the lie that you’re controlling it. You can do it, but not alone. Join a fellowship of recovery. I use a 12 step approach but everyone is different and you’ll know what works for you when you find it. Don’t give up.

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#37

You are very welcome! I'm not a expert, but if you need someone to talk to I'm a good listener :relaxed:

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#38

Chrystal,

  1. Uninstall the app from your phone, or,

  2. If you still want to read and reply and the notifications are making you crazy like they did me, go to settings and there is a button that is supposed to turn off all notifications.

Hope that helps.

#39

Addiction will do everything in its power, in a voice that sounds exactly like my own, to convince me that everything will be better if only I will...

And that thought always ends with taking or doing something that will kill me.

The hardest part for me to understand is that my addiction is fully aware that when it kills its host, it will die too; and therein lies the similarity because in the same way it knows it will seal its own fate, I know my action will seal my own.

And yet we both continue.

As Dave said so well, instead of deciding if I will drink or use, I choose to put all of my effort and energy into knowing the lis is a lie.

#40

Glad to hear it !

#41

Good deal