I relapsed after 412 days sober. I want to crawl in a hole and literally die right now
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Don't get down on yourself. 412 days is quite an accomplishment and now you know you can do it. We have our slip ups, but they remind us of why we quit. Take it easy for a while. I would go straight away to a treatment center, but that's what works for me. Do what's worked for you.
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Don't be so hard on yourself. Self sabotage is not healthy. You know what you did now act on it and move on you have accomplished so much in your year.Dust yourself off and keep doing what you already have learned. Look at it like forgetting to pick up your medicine on a weekend but on Monday you can start taking it again and you will be ok. Hang in there you are worth it and be proud of what you have accomplished.
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Get back on the horse! You have a whole community with you, willing to support you, wanting to love you!!! Take the help, they’ll help you regain your focus on the solution, right now you’re drowning in the problem. Grab a hand an hold on tight!!! 
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I am a heart patient with chronic heart disease. If I dont exercise and take my meds my disease will progress faster. It is a chronic disease, I will never be rid of it. Just like my alcoholism, and I have to take meds for that disease too. They are a lot cheaper also! Go to meetings, get a sponsor (and actually call them), read the big book, pray and meditate. When I quit taking any of the meds for either disease I will relapse.
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Take it easy one day at a time give it to your higher power our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ 
get to some NA Meetings or look for any NA Meetings on Zoom check with some of the members.
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Try to go easy on yourself, ok. This is one of the toughest journeys a person go ever go on. Keep learning, and growing. We’re all here for you
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Claire, now it’s time to reflect and get clear on how & why you relapsed. What did you do or not do? What actions could you have done differently?
I learned from my relapses.
It’s not fun but it’s part of the process. We become wiser if we choose to. Hopefully we can start learning from other people’s experiences.
I’m here if you want to talk
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What they all said! Recognize what triggered your relapse and chin up. Never quit!
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Yes, the most important thing is not to give up on yourself. What triggered the relapse? Start there and get support. Tomorrow is another day. May God strengthen and guide you.
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You didn’t lose a day of those growth opportunities you handled before. The tracking of clean time is fun until it isn’t, but we all only really have today. Your feelings are understandable and l am sad you are walking through them, but just by reaching out here tells me you might have lost a battle but you are back in it. Never give up. Keep talking. Keep connecting. You can do this.
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When I was in rehab they told me we will slip on our journey in our sobriety. The important thing is to pick ourselves up again and move forward.
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don't beat yourself up I had 5 1/2 years and relapsed but I keep on getting back up on the horse it don't matter how much timeor how many times you fall it is about coming back that makes you stronger I have 4 years now for the 3rd time and I can honestly say I don't have a want in my mind to drink and it has taken me this long to figure it out 6 relaoses and my life has changed 5 rehabs once I gave up control and let my higher power work through me life has been so much more fun
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You're doing good!!!
Stick with it, everyone makes mistakes. Why now? What was different that you relapsed? Did you forget your reason for stopping? Learn from it for the future
I relapsed after a year and a half. It made me feel weak and alone but I reacted instantly. I enrolled myself into a 30 day program and started over. At first I felt depressed and defeated..... but I also realized that I still had the strength to carry on so I embraced the sober community and I now have another 82 days sober again. You can do this , don't look back. Learn from past mistakes and move forward. I have faith in you!!
You’re not alone in this. Alcohol is cunning. You are stronger. Come back to the rooms and one day at a time, choose you. One hour at a time, one minute at a time. You can do this❤️
Alcohol has a tendancy of giving us that "crawl in a hole and die" feeling. Feeling guilty about it is a good thing! Means your not easily tricked. I wouldn't beat yourself up too bad though, you got 412 days of success under your belt and that's an accomplishment
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Unfortunately, some of us relapse at times. That doesn't mean we can't get sober. I was over 2 yrs and relapsed a few years ago, but im now 1 yr 9 mo sober again. Just remember that you will get there, but the fight will always be there and just overcome it each day!! Hence your "another 24" mentioning. Just keep pushing and remember when you hated the times you used to remind you why you're wanting sobriety
I e just relapsed as well not gonna lie it sucks I feel like I have no one
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