When does the self hatred go away?
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Hey brother! Don’t “wait” for it to go away. IMHO, it doesn’t just go away. Like most everything else, it’s a process. Start putting some work into it today (therapy, meetings, 12 step work, meditation, mental wellness podcasts and books, prayer (if that’s your thing), etc. start today and be consistent one day at a time. Eventually you will enjoy more and more periods of happiness. Just trying to help with some suggestions
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All of what Lee said… and it goes away when let yourself forgive yourself. It’s. Process… patience my friend. You have been dragged through the streets of hel! Give yourself the grace you deserve.
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When you accept it and realize that you need to take steps to put yourself in a place where you will never let it happen again. Help others and realize you aren’t what you did however you are still accountable. It is hard and shameful and it angers and hurts you but that’s why you gotta become a better person, and show yourself and everyone else that you are not what you did you are someone else entirely, Be the best Man you can become
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well that’s a very loaded question, and it depends on a lot of things. for me i had self hatred from a lot of trauma and my bipolar made it hard to rationally think. everyone’s issues are their own different b@lls of yarn and there’s not exactly a one size fits all answer, you just gotta do a lot of introspection and therapy to detangle it all. just try and stay clear minded and remember everyone is allowed to change. no one deserves to hate themselves, and even though it’s cringey and uncomfortable learning to love yourself helps a lot, it feels like you’ve never known warmth all your life and you step into a hot tub, it just feels right. self hatred won’t be eradicated from existence, but you can learn to twist it into remorse and guilt which are emotions you can have healthy relationships with and make meaningful change in your life to benefit you. but it takes a lot of work and a lot of time and you’ll definitely need a psychologist to help you do that. i hope the best for you and i really do hope you feel better soon, self hatred is a heck of a thing 
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Hello David: In my experience it’s different. In the short term, all feeling’s pass. But as others have mentioned, it takes work for an addict like me to forgive myself. I’m in a 12 Step program and have done some writing specific for forgiving myself. I have a sponsor and a support group. I go to meetings regularly. I listen to others who have gone through similar things. It works. It really does.
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Forgive yourself, and give it time.
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The day you accept the love of God that passes ALL UNDERSTANDING!!
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The purpose of the 12 steps is to deconstruct your unhealthy ego. 'Self hatred' is part of your ego run rampant, beating yourself up. Don't get me wrong, therapy is a good idea to. But with out the skill of letting go, you'll never get past active addiction, the obsession that ruins so many of us, or the guilt and shame associated with it all. Give yourself a break man. You're just a simple human, dude, person. That's it. Don't let your ego beat you up. Let go and let God.
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David, I can totally relate. First of all, I can tell you that your body is going through changes and that can affect your feelings and your ability to handle your feelings. There are things that you just can’t do anything about like your past.  However, you have today when they say 24 hours there’s a reason for it. The only thing that you can control today is you.  All you can do is try not to analyze yourself constantly like I do lol 
 just being around other people really can help a lot and if you don’t really trust your mouth, don’t say a lot 
In all sincerity, you will have a good days and bad days, but you can’t really think about that. Anticipating some bad days, but when they happen, chill out. Quit beating yourself up and give it a rest. You can actually do one thing that is to try to concentrate on gratitude and good things. It will get better. Just do the best you can today  and don’t dwell on your mistakes. You will be amazed at how things will begin to change. You got this.
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Time takes time, my friend.
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19 months in and I still feel it. BUT today I know that I won't feel this way forever. I know there is a solution. I know that solution works because I don't feel the self hatred as often or as strongly as I did on day 1. I put my life in the hands of this program and the spirit of the universe, and I feel it working, slowly but surely. Stick with us my friend 
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I totally relate, we need to put god in our heart now, instead of just in our head. He’ll help us. I’m an alcoholic and read the Al a non devotional, my sponsor send a screenshot so I bought one. I guess the focus on self love. We all love you, we understand!!
Self hate and guilt for the loss of a marriage was destroying me inside. It helped me to tell my sponsor everything. Unburden yourself and give it to God. I can’t change the past but I can be the best I can now.
I love what you said Lisa!!
The self hatred went away for me once I started making amends to those I had harmed. Step 8 and 9.
What I learned is self hate is just another name self pity.
I had to stop thinking about me and go help another Alcoholic. This action takes me outside of my self. If I don’t help others then I become very selfish.
How’s your relationship with your higher power?
Heya, I experience a lot of self hatred too. It blows. You’re here though so don’t hate yourself for long, you’re doing what a lot of people will never do. Sure, we all messed up pretty hard but others will forgive us and we can forgive ourselves too. Love ya. Reach out 
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It's simple that's why we don't get it. It goes away for me when I came up with enough reasons why I deserved to be loved. It goes away when you can make sense of why you believed it there in the first place. And it goes away when I realized that I could not go further with in recovering from all the hurt untill I stopped the act of hating myself. I've done bad and I'm not the only one that will. Use that pain as a means to fuel love for the everything you are and are around. Last everytime I had no productive emotions I begged on my knees for the understanding to heal and to love myself because I deserved it even though at the time many times I didn't feel that way. I'll pray for you and your s and I hoped you might find peace soon. Sending my love your way.
Good night
Hey hunny. Hate doesn't go away..neither does love. It only redirects. Perspective.. Someday you might find the reasons you hate yourself..is where you will love..truly love someone else from. Passion. The challenges we battle with regularly may some day became your best strength. A strength your peers will admire you for, and one you can help them to master. Don't hate who your not babes.. Or what you don't do. Love yourself for trying. And that loved part of you can find power in knowing that you did right by
You. And someday You will see that you takes care of You better than anyone else ever has. You'll find love my friend, not from short comings.. But from perseverance, endurance, and confidence in your determination. Not to finally get it right..but to keep learning everyday and giving your all and becoming your best. That's why I love you. One of many reasons to. Hate is a place. A place of resentment and jealousy and irresponsibility. A stance taken motionless from a far. Love is your action.your Andave.your commitment. Your power. A little bit goes a long way. Its got a roll over plan. And you can sandbag as much as you want for whenever you need it..with just one little bit. . One day..one minute..one breath if you need to..at a time.
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Hey buddy, it takes time & a lot of work on the inside. I’m sure u are a great person and a good friend. You have to start loving yourself and being the best friend to yourself. Treat you the way u treat others. Good luck and you will get through this i promise