Maybe this is a cry for help? After several years

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#1

Maybe this is a cry for help?

After several years if being sober the only thing I’ve accomplished is being sober. With that said im not really good at anything. Slowly losing everything in my life since i became sober. Even though I continue to push through i still feel defeated. Im not suicidal but man if i was sitting across the table from jesus or god or “higher power” I will tell them im done. That i want to go. I did the best i could with the cards i was dealt with. I blame nobody but myself. Just want to go. Wherever that is. The unkown cant be much worse than what im experiencing mentally now.

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#2

Logan, being sober is a great accomplishment! Be proud of yourself! We all have bad days!
Make a list of the positive things you love to do, what your experience is at with career/jobs. And pick one. Make it your focus and work on it.
Breathe in love! Breathe out disappointment!
I am proud of you!

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#3

You should be practicing the program. Willingness is all you need to start. Go back to meetings, no one can do this on our own. Your post is proof.

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#4

I just lack self confidence so I’m not really good at anything. Thank you for your kind words

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#5

I attend 5 meetings a month

#6

Finally at the job I really wanted and it took me since 2020 to get it. Assumed it would make my quality of life better also but not really. I sound like a Debbie downer now. I would share more but this post isn’t private.

#7

Been there bro. We all have. We think the job, the promotion, the relationship, the “arriving,” moment will fix something, and then we get there and we still feel the same or worse. I get it. Even after long periods of sobriety I still face this. It’ll pass. You mentioned you lacked self-confidence, and I get it, but just know that your value doesn’t lie in what you do or don’t even have, it lies in what you choose to do today. You got this. Find a healthy distraction, listen to a podcast, hang out in a place that won’t trigger you. It’ll pass. You got this man.

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#8

Logan, I know how you feel. I often have the " im done " thought myself. I have found that volunteering for those who need help makes that go away. One thing your good at as an addict is knowing what it is to be at the bottom. Helping others that are there gives me purpose and makes their life better at the same time. Anyway brother dont give up the fight because you really do have value.

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#9

Man i appreciate this so much. Today is a better than for me. You really don’t know how much your words have moved me. Appreciate you man!

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#10

Man i appreciate you! Thanks man. Even though it might seem rough and endless I cannot give up. Thanks for the words man

#11

You got it, keep pushing forward!! You got this :100:

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#12

Yes sir. Thanks Jay! You definitely have gained a friend. Appreciate you and proud of who you are! Thanks for being a good human.

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#13

I feel the same way but it's getting better I've been seeing a counselor that understands about the disease of addiction

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#14

I’m glad it’s getting better for you.

#15

Sobriety can feel like subtraction when you’re still figuring out how to build something back no matter how long it takes. The hardest part is, no one really talks about this part.

I don’t have magic words, but I do know this: staying here long enough will show you things you can’t see yet. Doesn’t make it fair or easy, but it does mean that growth is still possible.
You got this

#16

Hello my name’s Ariana can we have a conversation privately

#17

I would hit up a lot more my friend

#18

Keep venting scream at the air u are not alone

#19

U can change anything anytime. If u want to be good at something, dedicate yourself to it now. Study it. that shits dumb to leave

#21

What program?