I don’t know why, but all I’ve been thinking about recently is picking up a bottle again. I don’t even want to talk to anyone about it because I feel like such a problem, a burden. And they’ll ask me why I want to drink again, but I don’t have an answer for them. The craving is just there all the time lately. I would love to confide in my partner, but I dont want to trigger her, or risk ruining anything between us, or even have her thinking that I’m using it to get her attention or something like that. I don’t know. I feel like I’m about to go off the rails
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I wish I had words for you as I am SO new to this. But I know for me, right now? I’m taking it literally one second at a time. I’d like to think this is a safe space for you here and it’s great already that you reached out. I’ll keep you in my prayers.
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Odaat. Keep reaching out and feel better sharing here. Everyone is here to help. Hope today passes smoothly
I would go to a meeting every day you can. It may help? Feel free to reach out.
Just make it through to today. Do you have a mtg you can hit? No need to explain the why - we have an allergy that makes us think about it. Just play the tape all the way through though. Just once won’t be enough and you will only want it again and again. Will be around if u need to chat
Praying for you!!!
Get yourself into nature and light exercise - keep your eyes and attention focused on all the beauty that surrounds you. The leaves will turn soon, as will you, and ultimately shed and grow anew. Don’t deprive yourself of this opportunity for growth by masking it with substances. Embrace and commune with Mother Nature. She knows everything, love! Then find a way to be of service to others who need support. Could be a soup kitchen or a child or anyone who would benefit from your presence and wisdom. Give yourself a big hug and remember your strength and how well loved you are!
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Well,don't go off the rails -
We ARE alcoholics ,and that's why we think about drinking - it's what we do with the thought
If I am not actively working a program and utilizing the Steps, then I have NO defense against picking up a drink -
That's why we need to do what you have already done ,and that is to tell someone and expose the thought ,in so that someone just like us, can help
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I’ve got that self sabotage gene as well. I don’t know why, but sometimes I just want to blow my life up. It’s usually not one big thing, but more of just every little thing that I don’t want to deal with. The old me wasn’t even aware when I was feeling this way. I’d automatically find some substance or behavior to numb it all and escape it. Have you tried a daily recovery program? It’s the only thing that works for me. I still have my moments, but I feel so much better. I’ve built a sober life this time around, rather than just not drinking and holding on. I recommend you find some help before it’s too late.
You're never a burden! If you need someone message me! I don't know you but we are all a like in some way. I feel your struggle, I'm proud of you for at least coming on here and talking about it 
We all trip.., don’t beat a dead horse. Look forward move forward one minute at a time. Alcohol affects every cell in your body. Be nice to yourself… there’s only one of you
Just showing up and showing support is all someone may need. Ty
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Cravings just show up but what matters is you’re reaching out instead of isolating with it. We’re here for you
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I hear the strength it took for you to share this, and I want you to know you’re not a burden at all. Cravings can feel overwhelming, but they don’t define you or the amazing progress you’ve made. You’re showing courage by reaching out instead of picking up that bottle. You don’t have to carry this alone—lean on the people who care about you, even if it feels scary. One moment, one step, one breath at a time—you’ve made it through before, and you can make it through again. I believe in you.
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Its not worth it!!!!
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Your welcome to reach out if you need help. 304-376-8839
You're not a burden, and we are all here for you!! Reach out to me, I know how you feel, and this site is here for you and so are all of us!! You're stronger then you think!!
I’m sorry that you are feeling this way. It takes deliberate concentration and experimenting to get through cravings. But it’s easier to stay sober than it is to get sober. I hope that you can get through this.
Keep doing what you're doing, you didn't use yesterday, you don't have to use today!