I don’t know why, but all I’ve been thinking about recently is picking up a bottle again. I don’t even want to talk to anyone about it because I feel like such a problem, a burden. And they’ll ask me why I want to drink again, but I don’t have an answer for them. The craving is just there all the time lately. I would love to confide in my partner, but I dont want to trigger her, or risk ruining anything between us, or even have her thinking that I’m using it to get her attention or something like that. I don’t know. I feel like I’m about to go off the rails
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I wish I had words for you as I am SO new to this. But I know for me, right now? I’m taking it literally one second at a time. I’d like to think this is a safe space for you here and it’s great already that you reached out. I’ll keep you in my prayers.
Odaat. Keep reaching out and feel better sharing here. Everyone is here to help. Hope today passes smoothly
I would go to a meeting every day you can. It may help? Feel free to reach out.
Just make it through to today. Do you have a mtg you can hit? No need to explain the why - we have an allergy that makes us think about it. Just play the tape all the way through though. Just once won’t be enough and you will only want it again and again. Will be around if u need to chat
Praying for you!!!
Get yourself into nature and light exercise - keep your eyes and attention focused on all the beauty that surrounds you. The leaves will turn soon, as will you, and ultimately shed and grow anew. Don’t deprive yourself of this opportunity for growth by masking it with substances. Embrace and commune with Mother Nature. She knows everything, love! Then find a way to be of service to others who need support. Could be a soup kitchen or a child or anyone who would benefit from your presence and wisdom. Give yourself a big hug and remember your strength and how well loved you are!
Well,don't go off the rails -
We ARE alcoholics ,and that's why we think about drinking - it's what we do with the thought
If I am not actively working a program and utilizing the Steps, then I have NO defense against picking up a drink -
That's why we need to do what you have already done ,and that is to tell someone and expose the thought ,in so that someone just like us, can help