I feel like i wanna go to tha highest building & jump.
I'm sick of relapsing, yet it never lets me leave it too far behind.
I'm struggling to get away from an abusive ex that's also an addict (but doesn't want help whatsoever). My mind feels like it's going 100mph ....I'm scared, I'm alone, & I'm wondering if I'll ever get sober enough to truly be happy & be at peace with myself
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if you can change it up right now and go for a walk
Go for a long walk and talk to yourself. Talk about the positive things that you have just reading your post. You have tons of positive things talk about those. Those are the most important things and then I suggest if you can go to a meeting I just got out of one.
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Don’t give up, relapse is a part of recovery. Breathe and continue to work through it.
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Feelings aren’t facts, just get back up and keep moving forward
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You’re doing the right thing. Staying sober and asking for help. I strongly suggest you go to some AA/NA meetings and get some support from others that know how to help.
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Sorry to hear that you're having a hard time right now but it does get better. Would you like some information on meetings where you are? I can also give you some women's numbers who have been exactly where you are and are willing to listen and help
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Get busy living or get busy dying you making a choices to relapse make the choices to stay sober do the work it takes to be sober stop doing what you want to do do what you supposed to do
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You got this. Breathe. Taking a walk or stay busy and try to clear your head. I went through the same thing with an abusive ex, please focus on yourself. If he doesn’t want help this relationship will only bring you backward. You aren’t alone even if it feels like it - reach out, make a post - we are all here to help 🫶🏼🫶🏼
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Giggles, I promise you that you can get and stay happily sober!
Definitely dump the ex and don’t look back. Block calls/text etc.
I had to wake up and make MY SOBRIETY my absolute number one priority in life. Over finance, romance and even family! I went to AA/NA/CA meetings daily/nightly, got sponsors, completed the 12 steps multiple times and did service in the sober community. This lead me to deep and meaningful relationships with people that are living in the f***cking solution, not the endless cycle of the problem.
This is the easier, softer, funner and better way! I just wish I would’ve taken action sooner. But hey, I’m just grateful I did.
I’m here if you want to talk
And don’t jump off any buildings! That’s just dumb. I had a friend that did jump but didn’t die. After he got out of the hospital months later, the police charged him with attempted suicide😅
Please don't speak like that , we all have a place here, you just have not unlocked it yet but it's there, it will be an adventure finding it , blessings and prayers your way.
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That's not funny
Sobriety needs to be first right now. Trying to have a relationship when the other has no intention of change is a guarantee of sabotage to your sober self. Nobody has ever been able to change another person especially when they haven't made changes themselves. Find sober people go to meetings get a peer go to rehab so anything you can to support yourself. You will never regret getting help i promise you that. Hang in there and we are all here for you!
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Pray. God is our number one helper. Definitely go to meetings if you're not already, and find a way to put some space between you and your ex. I think toxic relationships are one of the worst barriers to sobriety 
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No it’s not. This disease addiction is serious. Cunning, baffling and powerful. That’s why we band together to fight it and win. The sober community, the AA/NA/CA etc program is our refuge and team.
I’m here if you want to talk.
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Take some deep rest, invite God into your heart He will help you
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That would be great
It wasn't supposed to be
Thank you. I appreciate it. I'm still trying to find my place in NA. I have really bad social anxiety due to ptsd, so it's become a road block when it comes to having to attend meetings & talk myself into going
Giggles, I feel and relate to your pain. Anxiety & ptsd is debilitating. That’s why the sober community is so important. We support each other. These are our people that understand us without judgement. We are all trying to recover. Maybe online meetings until you get a bit calmer & stronger.
I’m absolutely here to talk to you and help.