Should I start over?

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#1

prefacing this by saying please be kind.

I’m in NA and I had a couple drinks and I immediately regretted what I did… should I pick up another white key tag? I’m so close to my 60 days it would break my heart to do so but also I want to be honest about my recovery… i have been clean off of everything but I had a couple drinks a few days ago and I just don’t know what I should do. If you have any advice please let me know. I want my sobriety more than anything else in this life.

UPDATE: I called my sponsor and told the truth- I’ll be picking up a white key tag tomorrow. thank you everyone for the support and help!

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#2

Honesty is part of recovery

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#3

Then be honest. Like most of us. In our addiction we lied through our teeth. If you want a new life then start it right. There ain't no shame in it. Just don't make a habit of it. That's my 2 cents. You can and will do this. Prayers always :blush::pray::tulip::butterfly::rose:

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#4

I think you answered your own question Avery, and I believe you’re passionate about your recovery and what is going to help with how you’re feeling.
If you every wanna talk (about anything) we’re here for you, feel free to reach out to myself or anyone always. Your bravery is appreciated and inspiring!

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#5

It seems it’s weighing on you. You deserve feel the freedom of being rigorously honest :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: the # isn’t worth the emotional price. I actually heard a lady share very similar experience a few days ago in a meeting! She’s in AA and had 30 days sobriety and had a mild/moderate injury and her mom had given her a mild narcotic pain pill. The next day she got up and took another one and later that day it occurred to her that she had just taken it for the effect not actual pain and her sponsor had picked her up for a meeting where she was going to get her 30 day chip. She fessed up, reset her sobriety date, and now she has 3 years 2 months and is working an amazing program, does service work, and is a sponsor herself of 4 sponsees. I think you should be so proud of yourself for bringing it up here and this may be exactly the experience you needed to help avoid something more serious in the future! :revolving_hearts:

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#6

thank you everyone so much for your responses- I just got off the phone with my sponsor & I will be picking up a white key tag tomorrow. thank you so much.

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#7

^thank you so much

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#8

Thank you so much!!!

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#9

Thank you a lot !! ^^^

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#10

Thank you so much !! ^^^

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#11

To Thine Own Self Be True

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#12

Well said Micah

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#13

Be honest, or there is no point.

Also, stop playing with fire. Alcohol lowers our inhibitions and negatively affects our ability to make good decisions.

Hang in there.

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#14

So much strength in doing the right thing! You should hold your head high. We all applaud you! No shame in your game!!

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#15

Honesty is best. Starting that count over is tough but it's the reality. I had it explained to me like this in smart recovery. Sobriety can be like driving on the highway. If you slip up it's like getting off at the wrong exit. So you get back on that highway and keep driving to your goals. Just because you got off the wrong exit doesn't mean you start the drive over. You almost had 60 days which is great. Now go get those 60 days and keep going on to your goals.

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#16

Sobriety is sobering to the point we can be honest with ourselves and others. We all have choices,and being sober they can be clear and conscious
As addicts we have to work on our sober living, but it’s worth the time and effort to be alive honest , loving and sharing

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#17

No you shouldn’t. Don’t debate that. If it distorts your mind run for the hills. Especially if your in NA alcohol does nothing but make us humans who consume it dumb. We don’t make good choices hence why we’re all here! We have a disease a problem. So NO don’t pick it up. Next time call your sponsor before you pick up. Btw alcohol is a drug in a liquid form.

Here your transparency

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#18

Hey Avery, great decision. I get the sense it happens more often than it gets admitted too. I’ve definitely heard people share their story where the first time they went through the 12 steps, the left “something” out or they completed them just to find they wanted to do them over again the right way not their way. This isn’t a perfect program and it’s more often about progress than perfection as you know. We need to follow the simple suggestions that are given to us, us humans who are flawed enough as it is without addiction. Just remember the only failure is leaving, refusing to come back and …. Well you know that end. It sounds to me that you are well on your journey to sobriety and only getting even better on the way!

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#19

Hi Avery! I read the responses here and looks like you’ll be resetting your recovery date and picking up a white key tag. I think that’s the right move, in my opinion. In the NA readings, they say “alcohol is a drug”. I feel that in the long run, you will feel much better about your sober/clean date. Don’t feel bad or defeated. It happened and you got right back into your recovery. You should be so proud of yourself… I’m proud of you! Keep up the great work, all to get another day clean and serene!

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#20

Yes. Rigorous honesty leads to happy destiny.

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