Now before i post, i know dating in early recovery is highly frowned upon, i was so set on not even touching that subject until at least 8 months , which is not hard for me because my last real serious relationship was more than a year ago, but lord behold i met someone at the gym , who i thought was the most caring, sweet , down to earth guy I’ve ever met . It was the first time in SO long that i had genuine feelings like THAT for someone. i decided to take things slow, but r talked everyday , i felt my emotional connection to him growing . I thought i was lucky to meet someone like that right now. And of course , it was too good to be true and he ghosted me. Out of no where . After showing so my h interest.
I immediately wanted to drink myself into oblivion. My sponser is on a woman’s retreat so i thought “no one would find out, just one day to forget about this”.
I had the alcohol in my Uber eats delivery all ready . Excited even to drink again , feeling the emotions of pain, rejection , loneliness and anxiety start creeping in .
and i just sat there . I decided , let me just get through the next hour.
I’ve been sitting with my emotions of compeleré heartbreak , without a drink . I plan to do it for the rest of the day . It’s not much . . . but i have never allowed myself to really sit with my feelings like this . Hope everyone has a wonderful and better Sunday than me haha
Ahhh Jess....that's tough isn't it? It's hard not to feel all those emotions you are feeling. But Holy sh*t!! Look at you choosing to deal with these emotions WITHOUT drinking!! I hope you are super proud yourself! That is growth. Sorry that happened and you are feeling hurt but you will get through it because of the good choices you are making now. In the moment, for the moment N:OW.
Instead of drinking I’m cleaning and listening to my favorite music , i now know alcohol is not the answer
Those feelings will pass . Stay strong 
I'm happy that you didn't drink, Jess. I hope you Keep putting it off until you don't want to drink.
That always works for me too...keep your mind off of it.
Stay strong go to a meeting
Don’t be so hard on yourself. You allowed yourself to feel feelings towards someone in a sober state of mind. You are also sitting in your feelings right now. Which we all know is one of the most uncomfortable things to do. Especially when we know how to numb our feelings. You are strong for sticking to your sobriety ! Be proud of yourself ! I know I am.
Have you tried going to a meeting today ? I know sometimes it’s hard to get the energy to get up and go. But once you get there you will feel better ! I always do
Let us know how are your doing now! Please try 3D: Drink water, do something you like or something don’t, just being busy with something, and Deep breath! Talk to God. Ask him to give you strength
And honestly, Jess, that's all it takes the perpetual will to make it through the next hour and then the next and again the next. Eventually, you get to the point where moving backward makes no sense.
I'm proud of you. 
Thank you everyone for your kind words !!!!!!
One day at a time
Thank you so much
Thank you !!!<3
I’m currently at home waiting for a friend to pick me up in about an hour to have a girls night with ice cream , definitely better than a night alone drinking !!!!
I went this morning after i had the Uber eats alcohol delivery , it definitely helped
I hope you’ve gotten rid of the temptation!! Congratulations on making it through a fizzling situationship.
It’s so hard sometimes to let go of the version of this perfect person we’ve built in our heads before the real version of that person reveals themselves to us in an actual relationship.
I'm sorry you had to go through this it's hard out there. You're doing great and should be proud of all the self growth you've made by not going back down the rabbit hole by drinking. Stay strong you got this.