So tomorrow I will start my journey back to sobriety

Recovery
#1

So tomorrow I will start my journey back to sobriety. What are the one or two things that you did to get started? Thanks for any input you can provide :pray:

3 Likes
#2

First off, always know your worth it. For me, I started to go to meetings. I was not perfect at eliminating drinking relapses in the beginning, but I kept going anyway. Best decision I made.

#3

Thank you Jennifer. I am disabled so getting to meetings is tough. I knowing am worth it. It is impacting my marriage bad. Did you you go to rehab?

#4

I did, but I did it for someone else and used it as a bandage for the relationship. I wasn’t willing to give it up. Just got to that point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. There are online meetings also, but this is a great first step, just reaching out. Glad you know you’re worth it. Definitely a difficult journey, but so worth it

#5

Thanks Jennifer.

1 Like
#6

Reading the Big Book early on helped me to realize that my story wasn’t so unique and that other people felt the shame and pain I feel.

Meetings keep it fresh in my mind that I can’t do it on my own, and the moment I think I can is the moment I know I need to go to a meeting

#7

Thank you Darcy. White knuckling through today. I need to download the Big Book on my iPad.

#8

You don’t have to be alone in this. Be vulnerable, face the shame you feel, and remember that alcohol is cunning and baffling — this is a disease, not a bad habit

#9

Hard to get over the shame I feel. I read a lot today about the disease and do realize it is not a character flaw..it is a disease.

1 Like
#10

Find your way to God, surrender to him, understand that he is in control and that living by His will can lead you past all hardships

#11

Working on the God part. Hard though. :pray:

#12

The thing that helped me was and is making better connections. If you surround yourself with good energy then your energy will become the same. Surround yourself with bad energy your destined to fail. Cut out people and things that bring you down. And no matter what try not to give into temptation. I'm a year and 3 months sober. Realize your limits and weaknesses and try to change your way of going about handling them. Instead of giving in, walk away, delete that contact, say no, things of that nature. It's going to be hard. Trust me I want to drink every day. It is worth it in the end. You will realize and experience feelings of life that you would have missed from your addiction. Hope this helps. Remember, you are more than the people who doubted you were. In the end, your true friends will stand by you. I believe in you. Now it's time to shine.

#13

If it was easy it wouldn't lead to glory. I know it's hard, it all is, just don't give up on any of it.

1 Like
#14

Thank you Trevor. I made a mental list of the good and bad today. Certainly shrunk my circle :kissing: I appreciate your input. My goal is sobriety. I pray I can achieve and maintain it.

#15

I decided I needed help to reach my goals and checked myself into an inpatient center. I needed to give up control of what I was doing to make the change I wanted. It wasn't the most pleasant experience and I almost bolted at the airport. I knew for me it was the right move. I was at the point I couldn't just run away from my behavior anymore and I needed some help facing up to it all. At the time it felt like a failure but now it is just part of my journey to a better lifestyle.

#16

Thanks Joesph. I am going back and forth on the inpatient option. I have done IOP and then relapsed again. Did you do other options before inpatient?

#17

I tried meetings but they never stuck for me. I was getting off of benzos and alcohol so I thought I'd be better off with more supervision. I had been off the benzos for over a month on my own when I checked in, but the prolonged withdrawals were brutal and my drinking just got worse. I was always functional while I was doing my thing, but I couldn't do it on my own the last time around. So I decided to go inpatient route. I wasn't happy I let myself get to that point, but now I'm glad I did it. Life has improved quite a bit for me.

#18

I take 2.5 mg klonopin daily as well. It complicates everything for me. I am moving toward the inpatient route. Insurance is the issue.

#19

Insurance does complicate somethings. You could always start meetings and working on yourself while resolving the rest. The biggest thing is getting to the point you actually want to make the change. Even if it's baby steps it's always going to be one day at a time. Keep your head up, stay positive and you got this.

#20

If you are getting off the kpins I would recommend getting some medical advice and doing a taper. I ran mine too short and the side effects were terrible.