I read your bio. A lot of what you said fits right line with me. First off, you’re not being punished, you’re doing something that you know will better you. Definitely can be hard but finding sober friends will help. “Meet up” was mentioned. I know there are resources there, I haven’t used it before. I’ll help if I can, your not the only one that’s felt this way.
Welcome to our community. Hope we can help