I relapsed 7 months ago due to this guy that I was seeing. He kept questioning why I didnt drink and it seemed as though my answers weren’t good enough. This should have been the first red flag but I kept seeing him anyways. I took a trip out to see him and he ended up taking me out as a suprise to a karaoke bar because he knew I enjoyed music and singing. While there, he kept egging me on to have a drink. I said no maybe three times before I eventually gave in. I ended up with two drinks and was happy that it didn’t go any further. I felt devastated that I broke my sobriety and although I’ve been sober for 7 months now, this eats me alive. Especially because I haven’t really opened up about it. I work in recovery as well and that adds even more guilt. I feel like I’ve failed not only myself but my clients too and it has been extremely hard to bear. I’ve made it this far though and that thought along has helped me through. Tonight is a struggle though.
That's amazing you stopped at 2 drinks. I usually stop at jail or the hospital. It maybe wise to stop seeing this guy. Your sobriety comes first. Without it I know I have nothing. In recovery we don't kick our wounded and your experience could very well help someone else not to make thar same choice.
You can't dwell on a relapse all we can do is learn from it. So we don't make that same mistake with relapse, again, everybody stumbles, in sobriety, something that was told to me that it helped me a lot, don't worry about tomorrow, worry about today, take it 1 minute at a time 1 hour at a time. One Day at a Time. If you ever need to talk, reach out, I'm here to help you in your road to recovery. I struggle with it every day, even though i'm two and a half year.S sober
Always hate to hear of a relapse, especially at the detrimental encouragement of others. It’s a gut punch for sure but if you did it once, you’ve proven you have what it takes. Let’s go for round 2!7 more months with the “right” encouragement this time! You got this! 
Did we learn a lesson? If so what did we learn?
I've been sober for 13337 one days at a time and I even learned something about you and from your post. I ask myself "When will they ever learn?"
To thine own self be true.
Michael this doesn’t seem very encouraging. People are on this app for support so don’t spread negativity
Ciera you’re amazing for acknowledging what happened and wanting to grow from it. It’s unfair that you were pressured into it, especially by someone who is supposed to care for you. You’re doing incredible, keep it up! On the hard days, take it hour, even minute, at a time, you’re strong!
You didnt fail whatsoever at all and I got that feeling of judgement but if they dont empathize or understand no room for that..keep your head up and talk to us if needed honestly group therapy was and still is my best therapy reaching out and just talking saved me so many times
Don't beat yourself up. Learn from it and move on. You're a good person and you're sober today and thats all that matters
We don't fail if we're still alive and we're learning. I do know exactly how you feel. There are two books I really like: the alcohol experiment by Annie Grace and Allen Carr's quit drinking without willpower.
They both helped me to understand what was really going on with how I felt physically and emotionally, and I'm doing well now.
I have faith based resources if you'd like me to share them with you.
I want to say that my Lady and I frequently go to a karaoke bar, and we don't drink alcohol.
Their food is okay, and the bartender enjoys making us non alcoholic drinks that are quite tasty.
Most of all I'm sorry for the way your feeling. With patience and kindness towards your self and others you can feel better.
Take the time you need to heal, my recommendation is to leave that poison alone
Also sorry for the super lengthy reply. I'm grateful your here to share your journey.
@jessa358697 We are not here to coddle one another. I've been sober way longer than you've been alive. The simple question was did we learn anything from it. If not then you're not done drinking/using.
Ciera, I had to make and keep my sobriety the number one priority in my life. My sobriety over finance, romance and even family.
With sobriety I can have all of the above and sooo much more!
Without sobriety I lose everything and just get miserable.
Keep it simple, I’m here if you ever want to talk 
Hi, I'm so sorry you're struggling! I understand the devastation you're feeling! I've relapsed many times before now. Please give yourself grace, compassion, and kindness!! You're amazing and strong! Focus on the positive and how far you've come. Try to forgive yourself and learn from the experience. We all make mistakes. Keep moving forward towards the life you want to live with the people who support your journey 100%! I struggle with opening up as well! I know it's tough, but it's important to let it all out! You can do this! Hang in there! And feel free to message me if you need to talk! 
Truth is you’ve been sober 1 day same as all of us. Stop being condescending. And since I’m just sober today with 44 years of Sober experience I feel confident enough to say I have way more experience than you. If you don’t have anything encouraging to say move along we’re not here to shame people.
If I keep one foot in the past, and one in the future I'm pissing on today. We all have only today. Even Michael 
Well, we can't say we relapsed because of a person, place, or thing. The obsessing over the thought lead to the compulsion to use. We are ultimately responsible for our sobriety, our recovery, and our choices. We have to take responsibility and ownership of our choices, decisions, and actions. My recovery, my responsibility, my choice, my life.
Don't beat yourself over it too much give yourself some grace and learn from your relapse. Relapse is part of recovery.
To thy own self be true , let no one influence you about drinking , it happened so now move on , you can't change what happened but you can move on , do you have a sponsor ??? Are you making any meeting's ??? Come clean about what happened, you'll feel better about yourself, pray to your higher power, I hope this has helped , if you ever need to talk or want to I'm here , 11 year's clean an sober,
You’re not alone with this. I relapsed for almost a month without realizing that’s what I had done till after the fact. I just finally hit my 30 day mark like 3 days ago. Just be careful I initially started with two first as well. Then two days after it became 4 then 6. You know yourself better than I do. Definitely talk with others if you can. Relapse can happen unfortunately as least we are in the right place to talk about it.
This happened to me too and I ended up relapsing for almost 6 years after that. Be proud of yourself that you came back. That guy deserves a castration.