Tonight I am trying to keep the scary thoughts away

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Tonight I am trying to keep the scary thoughts away. For as long as I can remember I have struggled with myself, with feeling I belong. I lost my courage to speak up or be seen. After an intensely shameful and traumatic incident when I was 16, I should have quit drinking. But I went on and it became my security blanket (at least my intoxicated and uninhibited self thought so) in all social encounters. It, of course, wreaked havoc on my relationships. I guess tonight with this post I’m hoping to be seen and heard in even the smallest way and also give any encouragement to anyone who needs it.

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#3

Thank you. Yes the isolation is/has been real. How awesome you have freedom now. :rainbow:

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#5

Great share. I hear you

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#6

Thank you Mr. Today. :slight_smile: I’m grateful.

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#7

I absolutely hear, feel, and understand you. For so long I’ve used alcohol to numb feelings of anxiety, inadequacy, and doubt. Even though we logically know alcohol doesn’t help those feelings in the slightest, it’s difficult to part ways with the notion that it does for us. I don’t have a lot of time under my belt this time around, but I am currently trying to do the work to unlearn old habits and behaviors. Thank you for sharing and being here. Sending you all the love and healing. :heart:

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#8

Thank you so much, Alyssa. I need to unlearn some ways of thinking for sure… and learn how to be teachable. Giving you love and support right back. :rainbow::heart:

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#10

Thank you for sharing, I'm glad you're here. I hope you build the courage and wisdom you need to develop and unashamedly represent yourself; You are immensely valuable and heck yeah we can stay clean and grow! Thanks again for sharing

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#11

Thanks Via! You’re awesome :clap:

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#12

I see and hear you completely. The prison of the mind that addiction locks us in is extremely hard to break out of. Please continue to fight it, Continue to seek help, and continue to talk about what's holding you captive for that is the best way to break free and take your life back.

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#13

So well said - and beautiful, vulnerable and helpful. Thank you so much. :rainbow:

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#14

:pray:t2::rainbow::heart::pray:t2:

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#15

Thank you Michael. I will keep fighting!

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#16

I hear you! Your story sounds like mine (and many others). Move a muscle, Change a thought. I try to do something different when my brain gets going. I’ll take a walk, read a book, or go to a meeting. My mind is a dangerous place to go, alone. I don’t stay there anymore…

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#17

I hear you! Try and let go of whatever happened when you were 16. Live now for the amazing You that you are now! We’re all struggling but we’re stronger with each other to lift us up and encourage the great life we deserve😊

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#18

:pray:t2::pray:t2::pray:t2:

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#19

Thank you for your encouragement! :pray:t2::pray:t2:

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#20

Congrats on your progress so far Via. I’m not sure if you’re aware of it but I volunteer and teach Pickleball for an organization called The Phoenix Group that offers a multitude of free events, sporting, meditation, groups, etc. and they are all free. I run a sober living house in Carlsbad And I have had several clients over the years credit getting involved with these events, has been key to saving. If you ever need help or someone to talk to, or more information about The Phoenix Group, please reach out to me, 442-264-3260 and that goes for anybody else who reads this post

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#21

Via i’m sorry to hear you’re struggling, but I am so proud of you that you were speaking out. That is a huge first step. We are glad you are here.

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#22

You got this

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#23

:heart:So happy you’re here Via

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