Ughhhh I woke up in a bad mood. Just want

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Ughhhh I woke up in a bad mood. Just want a drink. It's my day off I'm 34 days into my sobriety and I am mad at the world. I just want to forget for awhile I'm sad and heartbroken I miss my narcissist ex. I just want a good movie and a cold one :frowning: send help.

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#2

Watch that good movie! Don't drink. You deserve so much better. Rough days are part of life, unfortunately. Figure out how you need to deal with those rough days.

Drinking is going to make it harder for you. Choose tomorrow as completing 35 days (5 weeks sober) or Day 1 again. I know you don't want the latter.

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#3

Play the tape all the way through. You drink, call the ex… then what? Feelings of guilt and remorse? Starting over on day one? Getting sucked into a month long binge or worse in jail? Grab some ice cream, watch that movie and call a friend. You are in Vegas… go hike red rock. Look for the wild horses… I have seen them. Stay strong!

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#4

It all begins with awareness. You are now pausing and not just a slave to your addiction. This is an amazing change. Now comes the hard part. Feelings these feelings and processing them until the craving subsides. What can you do about while these cravings hit you? Well, you are already doing the most important thing. You are reaching out and connecting. Our addictions want us to disconnect and escape. Keep reaching out and connecting. If you have any sober friends, pick up the phone and call them. I try and separate and differentiate my sick thoughts from what I know deep down inside is the right thing to do. You can call it my conscious, higher power, God, or any other term, but for me it gives me the strength and power to fight against my sickness. You know what is right and wrong. Do the opposite thing of what your sickness wants you to do. You have the strength inside of you to make this pass. Connect to it. We are always here. You don’t have to do this by yourself. We are stronger together

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#5

I would go to a meeting, several if you can. This disease is very sneaky it will catch you when you’re at your lowest point.

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#6

First of all know youre on the right track. You were honest, you admitted to yourself, to the program and probably your Higher power that you feel like drinking, thats great, if you were going to relapse you wouldnt be admitting anything and second you took a big step in asking for help. If you can get this far, you can make it further. Baby steps

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#7

Peaky blinders. Loudermilk

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#8

Does peaky blinders get better after a few episodes cause I tried to watch it and was kinda bored

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#9

Get use to days like this. This is the process of being able to have bad days without drinking about it. Or ask yourself; do you want to feel like you did the last time you quit.

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#10

Gets a ton better

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#12

A bad mood will only lead to a worse day if you drink. My husband is a whiskey drinker and he has been into his bottle again. It really made me angry for awhile. I felt my stinkin thinking coming back instantly :worried: . Yep, bad moods are normal until we have the 12 steps mastered. I want a stiff drink right now but I cannot or I will die. Choose life or death. Okay am choosing life for today.

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#13

Is someone reading the book to you?
Getting over a narcissist is a very grief ridden process there are some tough chunks to swallow.
I used to ask myself who would do this to a person? Now I ask myself what type of person stays with someone who treats people like that.
The love bombing and the selfishness the narcissist behavior cycle is pretty darn cunning and demoralizing.
Realizing that you were preyed upon… sucks.
But freeing.
Now we can see how we made decisions that put us in a place to later be harmed

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#14

Also look up Debbie mirza

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#15

i’m new to this and super f**+ing scared (and i literally bought a 12pack today) im also stupid young, like college student young
but i like the way you sound in your post and maybe we could chat some if you want ?

#16

My ex is a narcissist. Stay away. She almost killed me literally. Facebook has good support group for that. A coach helped me a lot

#17

Meetings meetings meetings

#19

I remember when I felt like that,this will pass your learning new tools to get sober one moment at a time turns in to one day at a time after I have almost 42yrs sober this week I still find myself looking at the what it's think it through

#20

I don’t need it Can some come talk to me

#21

I am

#22

I really do want to leave the drugs behind